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Jun 14, '08



It all started here.



Then kb tagged me. And he even thinks I can write. What atrocity ! 

Then Shomeonly tags me. As if one was not quite enough. ok, its like I just can't ignore it.
So here i go.



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This time it is not one but 2 games in one… and you either play both or you don’t play at all. You have to tag people in multiples of three only… minimum being 3 naturally.

General Rules:

1. Give the link of the original post (thats Dagnysharma's post above)and the post where you have been tagged. (I have done above)
2. Add the rules. (ditto)



The Naughty Tag (Game 1)


1. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? 

- Ok, I have been reading all the posts leading here. And an amazing number of people seem to be noticing the eyes first. 

Damn ! What in goodness sake is wrong with me? Eyes must be the last thing I notice. I see most everything else first.
And then another disturbing thought strikes me.
If the girls do really look at the eyes first, and they are looking at my eyes, they must be seeing what my eyes are looking at .... And, the obvious pleasure in my eyes... oh shit !!! oh Damn.

2. Who- of the opposite sex- would you want to be with if you were deserted on an island?
Any girl but my wife... I can not only enjoy my stay at the island, I have something to look forward to on my return to my wife, right? 

Also, as far as I know, my wife is not on fropper. And I am trying to keep it that way. No use mixing business with pleasure, huh?

3. What turns you on about the opposite sex?
A shapely waist... Oh, did I just say that aloud?
I mean.. her intelligence of course. 
I've always liked girls who could overcome the sexual tension and just be friends without putting more meaning into things. 

Updated (June 17 2008.)

Didnt know you could mention figures for #3.
Sazz did. So, I guess its ok.

Kids go here now http://www.disney.com. Others keep reading.

Let me think. If I had to mention what turns me on in the opposite sex,

ah, its too difficult. There are quite a few ways of measuring...

Lets start with the obvious ones:
Volume, Area etc.
Then there is
Stand-upability
thrust-outability
Tightness-against-clothability
bounce-ability
easy-on-the-eyesability

How about others such as individuality, non-availability...

Then there are units that Novacaine alluded to:
Black-eye-causability
Teeth-breakability
Kick-in-the-groinability

At different times, measurements may register differently on the different scales. But almost always they measure very high on the pleasurability scale.

For me, anything above a 6 on this scale is a definite turn on.

Guys, your take please. 

-- End update.

4. What turns you off?
The obvious assumption that you are easy on the eyes and hence deserve respect. You may be easy on the eyes, but if that's all you bring to the table, I will spend my time elsewhere.

5 Who do you think is the hottest amongst fropperites?
Oh she is in my friends list. And I chat with her on a regular basis. Haven't seen her photo, but she definitely is hot. 

Hey babe, you know I mean you!


Bookworm Tag (Game 2)

RULES
1. Grab the nearest book you have been reading. And yes, when I say BOOK… I do NOT mean Cosmopolitan… or Playboy… or even Playgirl magazines. I am asking for words… not pics…
2. Open page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the next three sentences.


Name of the book : huh ? Whatever makes you think I read books any longer than 40 or 50 pages , let alone 123.

ok, here goes:

checks,balancing accounts,etc. 2. a central office , as for exchanging information.

cleat(klet) n.[ME clete] : a piece of wood or metal fastened to something to strengthen it or give secure footing.

Cleav.age (klev ij) n. 1. a cleaving;dividing 2 a cleft;fissure; division.

Sorry people. This was not intentional. 
Name of the book : Websters New World Dictionary.
Cant help it if the entries on page 123 are quite appropriate to my mindset.

And now for the bestest part of the whole thing…. I am tagging:

1. Rayn_Cloud
2. Rat Race
3. Sangi7358
4. jd132
5. shakosh 

Guys, use this link to point back to this post. 
http://www.fropper.com/posts/16959

.... what, multiples of 3? what do u mean ?

Hawkeye.








Mar 13, '08



This is the real End of the happy story of Kaushal, Reshma & Shweta 'A Blessed Life'.

Please read this 7 part story starting here.

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Kaushal opened his eyes and found himself in a very dark space.He was feeling very weightless. It was neither hot nor cold. There was a little light at the far end of what seemed to be a tunnel. He shook his head to clear the cobwebs and tried to focus. He was feeling an intense thirst. There was faint music playing though he could not figure out where it was coming from.

He tried to sit up but he could not move. His limbs felt like lead. "How then, am I supposed to move towards the light?" he thought with some chagrin.

He tried calling out but his voice stuck in his throat. He tried again, and this time he could barely make out a moan.

No response. Nothing moved. It was like he was all alone.

He tried again. This time his voice was stronger and the tunnel seemed to echo with his voice. He was calling out to Reshma to come and hold him. He wanted to pick Shweta up one more time. He wanted to tell them that he loved them.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaah", he cried again, this time, in despair.


Suddenly, there was a brilliant flash which made him blink wildly. Then lights came on and remained on. The door had opened and a nurse had walked in switching on the light. He was in the I.C.U after his operation.

"Congratulations, Mr.Kaushal, she said, you have a new kidney now", she said cheerfully.

Soon Reshma and Shweta were standing by his bed-side wearing hospital gowns and masks. Reshma was crying with joy while Shweta was rubbing her cheeks back and forth on his arm. She was so happy that Daddy was back!

The End!
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Epilogue.

Kaushal came home after 10 days in the hospital. He was now eating like a hog and putting weight on at an amazing rate. He would stay home for the next 2 months and would only venture out for doctor's visits.

Today he was relaxing at home when there was a knock on the door. The postman had brought a package addressed to Reshma. She opened it and in it was the framed photograph of Officer Kelly Furtado in full service uniform. It had been send by James Morrison, Kelly's brother and Reshma's ex-colleague.

That eventful day, Officer Kelly was on the way to answer a home-invasion call. On Martin Luther King Blvd, a woman driver had seen Kelly's flashing lights in her rear view mirror and swerved into her path by mistake, instead of away from her. Kelly braked, but due to her high speed, her car swerved and hit the concrete median.

The lady emerged unscathed but Officer Kelly was taken to a hospital where the doctors determined that one of her kidneys would have to be removed as the renal artery connecting to it had been completely destroyed.

James was informed and Kaushal's data was matched for kidney recepient...




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Authors Note:

I completed this story for the benefit of those who were saddened after reading the earlier parts of this story. This story is not about pain and suffering. To those, who had the impression that the basic idea behind the story was to portray the difficulties our protagonists were going through, I say this ! ---

Wake up!

Stop feeling sorry for them.

This story is not about what others go through in their life. Its more about what you don't have to in yours.

Its not about the problems in theirs, but the blessings in yours.

Its not about how they stoically go through life, but to remind you to not complain about annoyances.

Its about how you should say 'I love you' more often.

Its about how you should take the time to play with your kids, lest you dont get the opportunity tomorrow.

Its about how you should say "Thank you" to your parents today, for they may not be part of your life tomorrow.


After all, Kaushal, Reshma & Shweta do have a very BLESSED LIFE.




















Mar 10, '08





This is a reply to MarkIV's post re LIVING WITHOUT CONTACT LENSES.


Now honestly answer each of these questions to yourselves.

1)Are you using your time wisely? 
2)Do you give thanks for the blessings in your life?

Then, go here to
view this video. 

Enough said.


Hawkeye.

P.s.
Takeaway :

Have fun.
Don't complain.
Show Gratitude.

Leave your comments.








Mar 02, '08



 

Hi friend,

Thank you for coming by. 

I hope you have already met with  Kaushal, Reshma & Shweta in the previous episodes of 'A Blessed Life' .

If not, start here please.

 I hope you were able to rejoice with them as well as  feel their hurt.

I also hope you were able to peep into the lives of those affected by one of the major diseases of the future: kidney failure. I hope this evoked some empathy in you too. 

  On my part, I enjoyed writing this story. I enjoyed going through the trials and tribulations of the players in this human drama. I only wish I could delve deeper into the psyche of the less prominent players. Give you some more details, so to speak.

I also thank you for encouraging me with your comments. To those of you who thought it was autobiographical, thank you. It was mostly that way. 

But on the other hand, I enjoy getting beneath the skin of other people. Live him/her for the moment. Feel her emotions, influences, experiences. Walk a mile in his shoes...
 
But I digress.

It is time to finally end the story of Kaushal. 

Here is what I request of you.

Please complete the last part of this story in your own words and in your own style. You are welcome to give it an ending of your choice.  Draw from your own experiences. I assure you, it  will be a great experience. 

Just post it in your blog and add a link back to this post at
http://fropper.com/posts/11507

There is no judgement. There is no contest. Just write your own version of the ending and have fun.  Ask me if you need any help.

I hope you will participate. 
Add a comment here, so I can look out for your post. 

Please drop me a note when you have posted your ending to the story.

Thank you all, 
Hawkeye. 


P.S. 
To those of you who are going to shout at me for taking this too flippantly,--"Ease up!  Its NOT the end of the world."
 













Feb 22, '08



This is part 7 of my story A Blessed Life.
Please start reading this here.




In the first few days of starting dialysis, Kaushal had spent most of his time watching what was going on around him in the dialysis center. Now, he had become used to the routine and would fall asleep. Today, he was biding his time under the watchful eye of Lakeesha. He was quite scared of falling asleep because of the allergic reaction earlier. Thinking of that took him back to older days. 

It was a Sunday and he had just woken up late. Reshma was sitting on the bed next to him while Shweta was playing somewhere.

"Hi", she said. "How are you feeling?" . She was feeling very concerned lately about his health and it showed plainly in her eyes. 

When she became anxious she developed a nervous movement of her hands too. She would keep rubbing her hands together without even knowing about it. Initally this had un-nerved Kaushal and irritated him, but he had learnt to live with it. Nowadays, he barely noticed it.

"I am feeling ok", said he. "I think"., he added almost as an afterthought. 

"Dont worry, the doctor's report should come in any time now. And you will be alright. Dr. Jerry told me so himself.", she was comforting him.

"Hey", he said, "I don't worry, remember? That's your job." This was an old joke amongst them.

Shweta came running and asked to sit on his lap. He picked her up with some difficulty and put her on the bed next to him. She gave him a hug and began playing with her ear stuck to his stomach. She imagined that it was a cave and there were animals moving around inside there. "So, what are they saying today?" he asked Shweta. "Nuttin, daddy", she replied. "They are grrrowling ! Listen daddy, listen."

The phone rang and Reshma went to pick it up. He could hear her talking indistinctly on the phone and decided it could not be the doctor since it was going on for far too long for that. "Must be her friends from work", he thought.

" I think I will just go watch a movie now. Do you want to come along?" he asked Shweta. Then the discussion turned to Cinderella, the only movie she was familiar with. At this point of her life, Cinderella was everything to Shweta and she loved to discuss anything on the subject.

It was all of 5 minutes before Reshma came back. Her eyes were red from crying. "Is everything alright?" asked Kaushal. "Is everyone OK at home?"

"That was the doctor", Reshma said. "And you have..." ; she was finding it difficult to complete the sentence.
" We need to get you into the hospital right away. They have a room waiting. Your kidneys have failed." she completed the words as if they were very heavy on her tongue.


"Kaushal, Kaushallll. You ok?" asked Lakeesha, bringing him back from his thoughts. 

His watch said it was just 4.30 pm. and he had been here on the dialysis bed for less than an hour. Time was sure taking its own sweet time, moving forward. He called Reshma once more, but again all he could get was a Voice Mail. This time, he left no message.

He picked up the book again, when Dr.Gerald walked up to him with his trademark smile firmly in place. " I have good news for you", he said. "You are on the list since the last three weeks." The doctor was talking about Kaushal being on the nationwide waiting list for kidney patients awaiting transplant. Whenever a donor with matching blood type and other characteristics(blood type, tissue type, size of the organ, medical urgency of the patient, time on the waiting list, and distance between donor and recipient) became available, someone in the list would be called for a transplant. "Keep your bags packed!", called the doctor before moving off.

Essentially what happened during a kidney transplant was that a donor kidney would be flown in from anywhere it became available. Patients on the nationwide recepient list would keep a bag literally packed with their essentials to the hospital at a moments notice. Often, patients went to bed with cellphones next to them so that they would not miss this all important phone call. IF you ever missed it, you could never say how long it would take for you to get called again. More rarely a donor came up who was willing to donate his kidney, but such instances were few and far between.

A little before 7, Reshma walked in with Shweta. She had picked the little one up at her school and brought her home. Lately, Reshma would try to come home and make snacks so that Kaushal could eat something too. Then they had a little snack themselves and went to meet "Dadda" in dialysis. Reshma never once heard a wince of complaint from her even though she was tired from playing all day at the school. She knew that her Dadda had the biggest boo boo in the world and she had to make him as happy as possible. Her unflagging enthusiasm and joy helped Reshma do more than she could have done by herself.

Normally kids were not allowed into the dialysis unit, but Shweta had won the hearts of the nurses on duty and subsequently earned permission to visit her dad. She was a minor celebrity among the nurses and had taught them all to say "Kem Chho".

She sat at his legs and watched TV while he ate the food they had brought from home. Kaushal told Reshma about the allergic reaction at the beginning of the treatment. He always had a knack of playing down any major issues when Reshma was concerned. This only made Reshma more anxious because she was not sure if Kaushal was not glazing over some details about what had really happened.

"Hey, Remember James Morrison?"  she asked. "I had spoken to Shormila Aunty the other day and Biswas uncle offered him a testing position in his office. Isn't it awesome? He only has to go to work 3 days a week. Other days, he works from home. He starts next week." When Reshma got excited she always spoke breathlessly until she had poured out everything she wanted to say.

"Thats great!" said Kaushal, "And, I am officially on the waiting list, the doctor just told me. Now, I just have to wait for 3 or 4 years to get a kidney."

"Good !" replied Reshma. "That's a start."

And then it was a time for catching up about the events of the day from either side. Whe he was finished with his food, Reshma took Shweta out to the waiting area so she could play for some time while Kaushal could rest.

Kaushal & Shweta then proceeded in their separate cars to Walmart where they picked up a camping bag and filled it with the necessary items from the list the doctor had left with him. Today Kaushal could barely walk and he made use of the wheelchair made available by the store. Reshma pushed him while Shweta sat on his knees. She was having a jolly good time of it.

That night they had the same food Kaushal had had for the last few months- Roti with some daal! Reshma always tried to give him a little something extra to keep his spirit up. Today she had made some halapeno peppers recipe she had found on the net. Some of the ingredients were on the banned list, but she figured that those little portions could not hurt him. By the time they had finished dinner and put away the dishes, it was 10.30pm and a very long day had ended.

The incessant ringing of the phone woke Kaushal up with a start. It was just 11.45 barely over an hour since they had gone to bed.

 "Mr. Kaushal Garodia", a surprisingly alert voice asked him. 
" Yes ", he said, still shaking the cobwebs of sleep from his mind. "This is Virginia Transplant Center. We need you to come in right away....







Feb 18, '08



This is part 6 of A Blessed Life.

If you are new here, please read this story from the beginning.
If you like it, come again. And feel free to share with your friends. Copy the link below and send it to them.
http://www.fropper.com/posts/10061 

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Tare je karvu hoye, ae kar....


Kaushal heard his father yelling at his younger sister Samisha just as he was walking in. From his tone it became obvious that what he heard was the culmination of another of the on-going war of wits between his  dad and sister. 

Being younger than Kaushal, she was far more agressive in her demands and view points and made no attempt to tone it down in front of her traditional-minded father. She always did something or the other he disapproved of and earned his displeasure. He would endlessly mutter under his breath about her wayward ways. When she was not withing earshot, he would direct his unrelenting monologue towards his uncomplaining wife who listened to everything and tried to calm him down.

It was at dinner time he finally broached the subject. "I met a girl in Bombay, and I have decided to marry her", he told his father. Kaushal never knew how to break the news softly or tactfully. His father froze with his hand curled around a piece of roti midway to his open mouth. He turned and looked at his wife with an incredulous expression on his face as if he wanted confirmation of what he had heard. He remained in this position for some moments while he reviewed what Kaushal had just said.

His mother was also looking at his father trying to gauge his response to what she had just heard. Years of trials and tribulations had made her quite impervious to any sudden jolt. Being a woman, and much stronger emotionally than her husband, she had always been the anchor that held the family together.

When active thinking returned, Kaushal's father firmly put his food down on the plate, got up from where they were eated for dinner and left the room without saying a word. His mother soon got up herself, and followed his father. "Let them talk", Samisha said, and she urged Kaushal to finish his dinner. She knew how hungry he got after the tiring 6 and half hour journey from Bombay. Her mind was full of questions. The rebel in her was also feeling a little proud of her brother.

After dinner, when Kaushal had returned to his room, his father and mother were waiting for him. "Just who is this girl?" asked his father.
"Someone I met in Mumbai", replied Kaushal.
"Gujarathi chhe beta?" asked his mom, who wanted more than ever to keep relations normal between her husband and their one male offspring of hers.
.....

His father then asked a lot of questions. He was asked about the girl, her family, their occupations, and a thousand other things which he found no reason to query about. In any case, he answered them as best as he could. He was asked if the girl's parents knew about what was going on. He was also asked why he could not find any girl from his own caste to marry, to which he really had no apt answer. Then his father asked him to reconsider, which Kaushal denied firmly. His mother asked him if he would even consider some of the other girls she had been pointing out to him on his infrequent visits home.


There were many questions, and many answers. It was getting on to midnight without any give from either side. Tensions were high and tempers were rising. Kaushal had become very tired and he was also getting irritated at his dad for casting aspersions at a girl he had never met, let alone heard about.

"Look," he said. "I have decided to marry her, and I just thought I should inform you first."

The angry tone in his voice was more than what his father could bear. Coming so close on the heels of the fight with his daughter which he had taken as a personal failure, Rameshbhai could not stand another beating at the hands of his own offspring.

"Nikdi ja", he bellowed. "Nikdi ja mara ghare thhey -- And dont ever come back!"....



"Kaushal, Kaushal." called an elderly woman's voice. He had some difficulty placing it. A voice fraught with concern. Was that mother? No. The strange twang in his voice only made him uneasy. Moreover he seemed to be shaking all over for no apparent reason. His mind was a kaleidoscope of colors, voices and feelings...

When he came to, he realized that these were the attempts made by the nurses at the dialysis center to revive him. He was just feeling a sense of immense peace, a serenity that comes only with giving up control. Maybe he did not have the power to control his body. He definitely felt very weak all over. He wanted to just stay with his eyes closed. His body was drenched in sweat but his teeth were chattering with cold at the same time. Jennifer was shaking him by the legs.

Kaushal finally opened his eyes and there was a visible sigh of relief on Jennifer's face.It took him a moment, but then he realized that he was still on the dialysis table. He had been unconsious for less than a minute. He had had one of the infrequent allergic reactions to something in the machine or the filter that they had happened to use that day.

Within another minute, his vital stats came back to normal and dialysis was resumed. Lakeesha pulled up a chair next to him and said she was going to watch over him this time. "You have a sweet little thing to go home to." she said. " We can't have you getting away!" and she patted Kaushal affectionately on the head. Kaushal looked at the watch and it was only 3.30 pm.



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"10-85, 10-85, All available cars in the Washington Square area proceed to 1147 Greenville Ave for a 10-85 in progress." the dispatchers voice came liltingly over the static of the squad car.

Nelly Furtado had just come off shift and was on the way home. Today she was debating dropping in at the nursing home to see her mother. "Let this one go", she thought. "I am off duty. And mom will be glad to see me today. I also need to get my car looked at." The car had shown a slight weave when braking at high speeds. 

10-85 meant a home invasion was in progress. Everyday some street punk invaded an old lady's house thinking that she was out. A burglary often became a home invasion when the old lady would surprise the invader or a neighbor happened to call 911.

Her mom had been incapacitated since her heart attack last year and was living at the retirement/nursing home. Her brother was working for in Virginia while she chose to stay close to where her mom was in Austin,Texas. Her mom's health had been deteriorating over the past month, but they had not told her brother yet as he was himself had been ill for some time. "He can do without the additional stress", thought Nelly. She had moved back in with mom a year back after her divorce had been complete.

"Suspects armed and dangerous". announced the radio. This last warning was more than what Nelly could ignore.

She had always been hard put to gain an equal status & acceptance among her more chauvinistic police colleagues. As a result, she had worked harder than anyone else to prove that she could do whatever her male co-workers could accomplish. And this often took her into the heat of the action.

She switched on her rooftop lights, moved to the left-most lane and was off towards I-35 N. If she managed to avoid the rush on MLK Jr. Blvd, she could be at the site among the first few cars to arrive.

"Dispatch, this is Car 91, I am off-duty, but proceeding to location for support. Please confirm." she spoke into the radio.
"Roger that Car 91", came the dispatcher's voice. 




To be contd....

Please do leave your comments. Thank you.








Feb 14, '08



Long ago, when I was barely an adult, I made a choice.  I chose you.

I chose to spend the rest of my life with you. I chose to exclude all other persons from my life and made you the center of my universe. 

You might think that I thought long and hard before I made this choice. What you know of me might even make you believe that such was the case.

In fact, it was never a choice made by considering alternatives and choosing the most logical or practical way. It sort of sprang up on me. I never remember having made you my life-partner. It just happened. Like most things with you, it just became.

Looking back, I cannot remember a single day when I was racked with self-doubt. I cannot remember having agonized over my decision. You seem to have always been a natural extension to my universe. I never thought of what life would be like without you. Such a thought never even occurred to me.

One day, I was living life for my own self with my own selfish desires and my own carefree attitudes. Another day, I see myself thinking of you and nothing but you. One day I am as carefree as a butterfly appears to be, another day, I am wrought with worry as you are late by 13 minutes. I just dont know when you changed me or how.

I just seem to have changed. All of a sudden, those long walks on the sea-shore became as necessary for life as air to breathe or water to drink. Waiting by the phone for your call became one of the most welcome niceties of my life. Shopping trinkets for you became something I took secret pride in. Muttering sweet nothings didnt appear so senseless any more. I no longer saw anything wrong with making up stories to cover for my time with you.

I began avoiding my friends whose company had been a daily staple of my existence. Action movies became a thing of the past as you liked only the romantic ones. It became fun to watch out for your eyes to mist up somewhere along the movie when somebody mentioned a piece of heart-rending dialogue.

I went to bed dreaming of the twinkle in your eyes & woke up dreaming of your smile. Your black jeans with the Levi logo on the back pocket became my constant companion. I am sure the dial of my watch faded a bit because I was looking at it a little too often while waiting for you to arrive. Every song on the radio seemed to remind me of you.

You were the only one who had encouraged me to sing,ever.  you must have hurt your ears listening to me,tone-deaf as I was. No wonder, I chose you to share my life with.


Years have gone by, and I have often thought about the wisdom of my choice.

We have had our misunderstandings, our disagreements as well as our fights. There have been many days we went to bed without talking. Believe me I have rued those. In hindsight, it has always been something we could have solved by simple discussion. More often than not, it was me jumping into conclusions. At other instances, it was me trying to mould you into something you were not.

Through this all, I see the look of hurt in your eyes and wondered what I did to hurt you. Or why something so plain and simple to me was incomprehensible to you.

Please know this. I am a clod. If you want me to understand something, you need to hit me over the head with it. (May be thats why they call it "under -standing").

Sometimes I have great expectations of you, which may not be entirely practical. I do understand, though often I forget; that we are two different individuals and my strengths may not be your strengths. I promise to identify what you want to do, what like to do and nurture those aspirations.

Sometimes, I just dont listen to you enough. May be its just me being the idiot that I am.


You also have shared many joys with me, too numerous to mention here. But thank you for each and every one of them.

You cook for me, clean for me and you make me fell that I am needed. Thank you.

When I feel defeated by circumstances, I come back to you to lick my wounds. You make me feel wanted. Thank you.

You make me see where I went wrong and prepare me for the next battle. Thank you.

When I hurt, you drop everything else and look after my needs. Thank you.

When I forget your birthday and our anniversary, you hide your hurt and still love me. Thank you.

When I cut you off in the middle of a sentence with one of my own, you take it in your stride. Thank you.

When I tease you because you used a word incorrectly, just to be a show-off, you shrug it off and still love me. Thank you.

When I spend entire days in a bad mood because of a petty quarrel, you make me feel good with a kiss and a hug. Thank you.

And for all the other little things you do for me, without me even knowing it, Thank you, thank you, thank you.


I am sorry for irritating you, chiding you for silly un-important things. I am so sorry for making you angry! Again and again. 

But you know what? When you get mad, your nose gets all red and looks like a strawberry. I just love you when you get mad.  I don't know whether to continue fighting or take you in my arms...


After all these years of togetherness...

I still love you.
Its your smile that gives me the strength to go to work every day.
Its your support that gives me the courage to stand up and keep going when all I want to do is give up.
Its your chiding that keeps me grounded and humble when others praise me to achieve their ends.
Its your embrace I long for during those times we are apart.
Its your thoughts that keep me sane during those maddening hours.
Its your dreams that I dream of fulfilling...

You still are the love of my life.

And after all these years, I am still proud of the choice I made then.








Feb 10, '08



This is part 5 of A Blessed Life.

If you are new here, please read this story from the
beginning.
If you like it, come again. And feel free to share with your friends. Copy the link below and send it to them.
http://www.fropper.com/posts/10061 

If you are still here, please do let me know...
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"Cow-Shall? " Cow-Shall? Kaushal woke from his reverie with his name ringing in his ears.

In 2 years the nurse's aide had not learnt to pronounce his name correctly. Kaushal had learnt long ago not to try to correct her. At least she used the puzzling expression on her face when she said it, thought Kaushal. That made up for her not being able to say an Indian name; sort of. 

She led him in to the weighing area. He divested himself off various items from his pocket such as wallet, cellphone and keys and stepped on the scale. He weighed in at 2.5 kgs over his dry weight, which meant that they would withdraw about the same amount of liquid from his body during the dialysis.

Like many other things in life, Kaushal kept meticulous care and track of the amount of water he drank and hence he was not surprised at the weight. Most days, he could very accurately predict this weight. After collecting his stuff, he proceeded to follow the nurse to his allocated dialyzer.

Dialyzers were simple pump and filter affairs. Machines at this center were German built and this particular item may have dialyzed hundreds of people in its nearly 20 years of service.Dialyzers were reused after a thorough cleaning of its surface and surroundings. Meticulous care went into their upkeep and Kaushal was duly impressed by how systematic everything was at this center.

He sat back in his chair and called Reshma to let her know he was going into dialysis. If Reshma called in the next 3 hours, he may be asleep and might miss the call. Reshma was probably busy at this time and the call went into voicemail. He left a message and lay back in his chair as he waited for the head nurse to come and start the dialysis. He preferred to avoid looking at the 17 gauge needles laid out for him since thinking about them still sent shivers thru his body. His blood pressure would shoot up even higher which caused some of the nurses to look at him with anxiety.
"They look like I am about to explode", he thought once, amused. 

Kaushal knew each nurse on his regular shift by name. He came to admire Jennifer the 23 year old nursing student who worked two shifts and went to school at night to get her nursing degree. He knew tall Lacy who dressed up for work like she were Beyonce dressed for concert. She had purple hair and bracelets covering both wrists almost up to the elbow.  She flirted playfully with every male member on the staff. Jennifer, a single mother of 4  trying to put her sons through school after their dad had just walked out and left them last year. Life had treated her unfairly and she was just learning to take it her stride. For her every patient was just another job to be completed. She had learnt to stop being emotional a long time ago. 

 He often provided himself with a status report on each one just to pass his hours during dialysis. He respected what the nurses were doing but most of all, his favorite was the head nurse on duty, Lakeesha.

Lakeesha, was a grizzled old veteran of the dialysis experience. She had been looking after kidney patients for over 25 years in various positions throughout her career. She would waddle up to the patient with what seemed to Kaushal to be an inordinately slow motion, but when she did the "sticking", all pretense of slothfullness vanished and her mastery showed through. Anyone who saw her measured movements at sticking time, would never think of her as slow.

It was only the head nurse who could stick the needles into the fistula to start dialysis. Sticking was a slightly tricky operation and not for the faint of heart; especially so, since Kaushal had a bigger than average fistuala. Two years back, he had religiously used his hand pump day and night in order to grow it so big just like the surgeon had instructed him to. It was now roughly 1.5 inch in diameter. Like a slow flowing river winding its way down to the sea from the mountains, this  blood vessel wound its way from shoulder to elbow on the left upper arm. The high blood pressure brought on by the kidney failure often caused the blood to spurt out in a geyser unless the nurse doing the puncture was quick enough to cover the opening with gauze.

Lakeesha was a past master at the sticking game and Kaushal was hooked on and the dialysis started in no time. Now he would remain in this seat for nearly 3.5 hours as he did every other day. Lakeesha covered him up to the chest with his blanket and left on her rounds. Kaushal chatted easily with the patient on the neighboring machine. John Anderson was 60 years old and owned a local construction firm. Kaushal asked John about his grand daughter who was the same age as his Shweta. In a few minutes  he was ready to lay back and read his book. All he could do now was wait!

Kaushal had been very active physically throughout his life and waiting had never been very welcome. At any other time, he could pace back and forth to pass the hours, but on dialysis he was stuck to the machine. He had always prided himself on never being bored, but this waiting was severely trying on his mind.  

He picked up his book and turned to where he had left the corner page folded. He always did this so he could open the book with just his right hand. The left  hand with the needles in would not be moved as long as he was on the machine, lest the needles come off. 

He had just read barely half a page when his head started feeling sort of funny.

"Lakeesha", Kaushal called out, but his voice felt like it was stuck in his throat. The nurses were standing around the desk at the far end talking animatedly among themselves. He grew anxious and shouted with all his might. Even then it came out in a whimper.

"Help ........." he cried.

That got the attention he was looking for.  Jennifer was closest to him and came over to enquire what he wanted. She had seen all sorts of requests from patients and wore an almost uncaring expression on her face. 

"I feel funny all over", said Kaushal. " I am going to be pass out; please stop the machine", he pleaded.

Years of working around patients with their weird demands had made Jennifer deaf to most pleas. With deliberate movements, she turned and called to Lakeesha. This time, Lakeesha sensed that something might be wrong and showed amazing alacrity in getting there.

"I am feeling very dizzy. " Kaushal said again; the fear plain in his eyes. "Please turn it o..."

 Lakeesha turned to him, but Kaushal had already passed out.
 



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to be continued...


















Feb 05, '08



Hi Friends, 

This is a test. Help me out here. 

On Astrolife, the prediction for me today was ...

'Today there could be a point where you get yourself all stewed up about something that isn't quite as important as you make it out to be. You may disappear behind a defensive barrier at a whiff of criticism. The Moon at a flowing angle to Uranus will put the sparkle back in your eye since a small adventure beckons. '

And it happened just like it said. Though I did not see the prediction until after the 'stewing up' had happened. 
"A small adventure" ? hmm, I think that happened too .

What I want to know is if this ever happened to you too? 

Do you have enough evidence to believe in these predictions? 

Have you had any multiple occurrences of  uncanny/eerie coincidences? Do you see any patterns? 

I wish to keep this friendly and hence use of this forum. 

This is no scientific study. 

I am just interested in knowing more. 

Cheers, 

Hawkeye, Last of the Mohicans.



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hi guys,

Sorry for the delay in posting the summation.

Yes, I was waiting for more comments.

But then, I figured: "since you all could read the individual comments, why would u want me to say it all over again?"


Ok, here goes.
What I want to know is if this ever happened to you too?

Yes, overwhelming, yes.

Do you have enough evidence to believe in these predictions?
Yes, no, some fence sitters, but mostly yes.

I think the fence sitters are refusing believe evidence?



Have you had any multiple occurrences of uncanny/eerie coincidences? Do you see any patterns?

Patterns are not visible. May be we just dont have records.

Some of those who commented mentioned the fact of prediction using the time of birth and the position on the earth.
Some swear by palmistry and some by other arts/sciences
Some believe in numerology.

I don't know how much to believe or disbelieve in any of these methods. But the problem with human thinking is that we disbelieve what we cannot understand. So all I can say is we may not be able to see it, but it might still be there.
There might be patterns too, but beyond what we can record in our daily lives. Things go unnoticed because they go unrecorded.

One person had commented about that fact too.


What do I believe? --
All I know that my birth date has repeated itself in uncanny ways through out the last 6 years. All the good things that happened seems to have occurred on days that add up to 4. 
That makes you believe some, doesn't it?


The day I wrote this post was the last day I actually saw my prediction. I mostly dont look because I just shudder to think that my life is already pre-destined and I have no say in the matter.

Take care all of you, and thanks for commenting on my post.
 









Feb 03, '08



Guys,

If you are new here, start reading  A Blessed Life I .
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If you have already read the previous parts, Thank you for sticking with me for so long. 

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For Reshma, showering with Shweta was the most enjoyable part of the day. The little one had an affinity to water and she would float her little body in the tub and make Reshma laugh with her antics.  She often wished this could go on for hours and hours. But still, she was thankful of the better part of an hour she was able to share intimately with her daughter. She thought she had a special relationship with her daughter unavailable to mothers elsewhere. Reshma never suspected that she was forging a bond that was passed on between mothers and daughters everywhere for as long as humans roamed the earth. 

After showers, Shweta went directly to her pink dress with the polka dots in front. This was a relatively old dress but Shweta had developed an attachment to it. Shweta would first ask for this one, in spite of the fact that she had scores of other dresses; each one just as pretty. Reshma loved to give her daughter new dresses almost on a weekly basis. They were not very expensive if you purchased from Walmart or on 'Sale' at one of the other stores.

Ever since Kaushal fell ill, he did not have the strength or stamina to play with Shweta. He used to carry her around for hours on his shoulders while they went to the malls. He used to be her horse and they would run all around the subdivision to the amusement of their neighbors. More than that, Kaushal had infinite patience for his little girl who was so full of life and so curious. She could come up with a 1000 questions and he would answer each one to the best he could make her understand.

Now, her heart would break seeing Kaushal kiss her on the forehead and push her away gently when she insisted that 'Dadda' play with her. Also his temper had grown short as he was tired all the time.He  would get annoyed if she started asking questions in her customary manner. She was too young to realize that Dadda's boo boo hurt  more than the little cuts on her fingers over which her mom used to put 'Mickey & Minnie Band-Aids'.

Reshma,in her own way was apologizing to her daughter for Kaushal not being able to play with her by buying her new clothes. Shweta would see the other kids playing with their dad in the park and want to "go play". Lately she had stopped asking as she knew the answer would most often be in the negative. This little girl of 3 was showing maturity beyond her age. "She would always know what to do and when to ask" thought Reshma proudly.

Dropping her off at day-care, Reshma soon was off to her work. It was a 30 minute drive and mostly on the highway. She used this time to say her prayers and prepare for her day ahead. Today she realized that she had to finally do something that she had been putting off for some time.

Reshma worked for an Indian software company as HR associate. She had started working a couple of years back as soon as Kaushal fell ill. Shortly thereafter the existing manager quit to "find better opportunities". Knowing that they would not get an American replacement to do the amount of work at such low pay as Reshma would, the owner had lost no time in asking Reshma to handle the additional responsibilities. Now she had to do both her original work and fulfill the new functions for no extra pay. AS the company grew, her responsibilities and work load grew but no additional help was provided. Any other time, she would have quit at the gross injustice. With Kaushal being ill, she had no idea how long he could carry on with working. This steeled her determination to held on to her job at any cost. 

After checking emails, she decided to tackle the matter of James Morrison first so that she could get on with the rest of her tasks. Recently, he was diagnosed with cancer of the abdomen and was undergoing medication and radiation. He had returned to work after a medical break but things had changed for him. The medicines took a toll on James; and his ability to work with his team members had rapidly deteriorated. He would not show up for work regularly or if he did, he would often miss meetings. He would forget his tasks and be seen sitting slumped down at his desk. He had to be replaced in his team and new team-managers were avoiding him.

This matter was especially difficult for Reshma as she knew first-hand what disease could do to a person. She had seen Kaushal transform from a man full of joy and life to a mere shell of what he once was. She had seen Kaushal go from a healthy 150 pounds to nearly 120 pounds. Reshma understood and totally commisserated with James. She empathized with him on so many levels. Nevertheless, the company would not keep him on if he could not perform. Talking to him was her responsibility and she would do her best to help him out. She sent out a meeting  request and got on with her tasks. 'Oh, how He tests me', thought Reshma.

Lunch was again done on the desk so she could shave 30 minutes off her work day. She cleared out all the paper stacked it on one corner of the desk and began lunch. She reached for her water while reading a memo sent by the CEO and accidentally knocked it down. Some water spilled on the photo of Kaushal and Shweta she kept on her desk. This was the picture of him walking into their house with Shweta the day she was born. "How happy we were",thought Reshma. "And how suddenly fortunes change..."

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Here is the challenge to you. 

Write a conversation as it takes place between Reshma and James Morrison. Make it as detailed as you can. 


After reading the comments, I realize that I cannot give you guidelines without giving away the story line. 

So the challenge is withdrawn. 

Sorry again, folks. 

And thanks for taking this story seriously. 

But believe me. What Kaushal goes through is nothing compared to what he would have if he were living in India. Life with kidney disease in India is far more dangerous/deadly than I can  explain to you.  (Imagine dying one little bit at a time over many months...)

Maybe, someday, if you have patience with me, I'll tell you a similar story playing out in your backyard... 












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