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Mar 14, '10



Please allow me to sit with you
Let me listen to your worries
Let me become shoulder to you
Dear...Your Silence Kills Me!

Let me sing for you in silence
Let me dance in your smiles
Let me be music of your life
Dear...Your Silence Kills Me!

Let me touch you and hug you
To reduce intensity of worries
Allow me to say I Love You!
Dear...Your Silence Kills Me!

Don’t treat me a separate soul
I live only for you as a whole
Look at me, speak to me once
Dear...Your Silence Kills Me!

Sneha








Feb 13, '10



My love...nearly two decades back we were a group of five good friends. I found Sanju more appealing and developed interest in him.  I was attracted not to his charming personality but to his unbounded care on me. On that Valentine’s day I expected Sanju to present a Red Rose and express his love on me. But he presented it to Anu in our gang five. Heard every one clapping, so, I too clapped without lifting my head. Yeah…I tried to hide my tears. After them leaving, you presented me a red rose. But I nodded my head sideways. You didn’t say any word; went back. Our friend Raghu murmured on how my rejection hurt you. I wiped out my tears and lifted my head but found you coming towards us with a bunch of yellow roses. With broad smiles you presented them. I too smiled and accepted. Raghu clapped and announced “Arre I forgot my present. Just wait a moment”. He ran through the crowd of that coffee house. With low voice I said “Thanks”. You smiled again and said “Come on Sneha. Let us sit there.” We settled at near by coffee table. “Happy Valentine’s Day Sneha” I heard Raghu’s voice. When I turned to see, I found him with beaming face and fuming coffee, hot pokoda and mirchi bujjies. I laughed and replied “Happy Valentine’s day”.

No change in affection shown by either you or Raghu or Sanju. Everything was in the same flow. All the three of you never spared any one daring to comment on me or on Anu. Sanju and Anu became very close. Days turned to months, we entered final year while another Valentine’s Day approaching. Sanju and Anu vanished in the morning itself to celebrate their love. You invited me to the garden opposite to our college library. When I reached there, I found you alone. “Love you Sneha” you extended your hand with a bunch of Red Roses. I was spell bound and looked at you with no expression. You smiled and said “Sneha…no one is here. So you can reject me without any hesitation. I will get Yellow Roses if you wish.” I realized intensity of your love; accepted those Red Roses. You got a phone call and pressed the speaker button. That was Raghu “have you proposed Sneha? What happened?” You looked at me and controlled smiles while saying “No. Not yet.” Raghu shouted “Rey idiot. Say it fast. I can’t wait for another birth to see you both as a couple.” His words made me burst into laughter. He realized the speaker on. He said “Happy Valentine’s Day Sneha. Will meet you in Coffee house to present your favorite hot pokoda and mirchi bujjies.” I laughed again and said “Yeah...will wait for that gift.”

You took me to Coffee house. At the entrance we found Sanju and Anu. Don’t know why but wished a lot to avoid presence of Sanju at that moment. They came to us. You said “she accepted me”. Sanju said “Sneha…that was an excellent decision you took. Sree is a gentle man. He is a right choice. I am sure no one in this world can take care of you more than him.” I bent my head to hide tears rolling on my cheeks. Anu interrupted him saying “Hey...let them have fun together. Our present task is to run away from here.” He laughed “Yeah...sure.” He touched my head with his hand and said “Sree...take care of Sneha.” In the next moment they vanished from the sight. You took me to wash room “Go...wash your face”. Cool water gave great relief. When I came out, found you at a corner table. You showed place beside you . Then slowly took my hand and patted on it. ”Sneha...just a moment.” You took my face in your hands and adjusted misplaced Bindi. By that time I heard Raghu’s voice “Happy Valentine’s Day Sneha.” He was with a tray filled with hot pokodas and mirchi bujjies. We had great fun.

We all got jobs in campus selections, that too in the same company. Within a year we became a couple and then attended Sanju and Anu’s marriage function, Raghu’s marriage with his cousin. After three years, Sanju and Anu went to US and settled there. After the farewell party, you asked me “Sneha...do you wish to settle in US?” I said “not in particular.” You hugged me and said “Sneha...I don’t wish to leave India for any cause. Let us visit those places in our vacations.” “Yeah” I said slowly while enjoying your lovely words.

I still remember…after marriage, on first Valentine’s Day, you presented gold bangles and proposed to go for candle light dinner. Whenever I hear Valentine’s Day, mind brings back those memories afresh…that first Valentine’s Day and how Sanju presented Red Rose to Anu while I was expecting. I became upset and said “please...let us celebrate on some other day.” You didn’t question why. I knew I hurt you.

From that day onwards we never celebrated Valentine’s Days. Instead you made it a way to celebrate all New Year eves. After twenty years of our married life, today, while enjoying moon light in the balcony, I said “Tomorrow is a Valentine’s Day. Don’t you ask me for celebration?” You looked deep into my eyes and said “No. You can not enjoy it”. While controlling trembling voice I said “Valentine’s Day reminds me Sanju and” I could not continue further and burst into tears. You placed your hand around me. “Sneha...we were good friends before becoming couple. I knew how you developed first love on Sanju. I can understand how failure of first love hurts.” You hugged me and said “I am lucky. I got my first love in my hands and that love got multiplications all these years.” You kissed my eyes while tasting those salty tears.

What else a woman can wish for when she is beside the person who understands her the most and makes her more comfortable with his every action in life? I wished to say “You are my Valentine forever” but became busy in reciprocating to your romantic deeds.

Sneha








Jan 21, '10



In the childhood I participated in drawing competition and made a big portrait which reflected all colors of beautiful flowers in the green valley, blue sky, light blue canal, swans, chirping birds, coconut trees etc. I named it “My Life”. For that I got state level first prize. It was a great treasure for me. At least ones in a week, looking at “My Life” and enjoying those lovely feelings filling my heart became a habit for me. I used to show “My Life” to others and enjoyed explaining them how logically I added all colors to bring out the lovely atmosphere at every part of My Life. All used to praise my talent.

One day while I was showing proudly My Life to others, I forgot that I had a coffee cup in left hand. Children were playing behind us. One child from that play group dashed me. Even though I took utmost care, coffee spilled over My Life. Hurriedly I took my kerchief and tried to erase that coffee mark. But that area became worse than before. All colors at that part of My Life mixed up with the coffee and made a non-erasable dirty mark there. I can not explain how many days I cried for my recklessness. If I had taken care and didn’t carry Coffee cup to My Life, I might have saved it from this dirty mark.
But nothing is in my hands. It happened. Cried for several days and slowly recovered the normal life. But, I never stopped watching My Life regularly and enjoying emotional feelings hidden in my heart.

As years passed by, edges of My life turned to pale brownish color. It made me feel sad. I took white color permanent marker pen and filled that area and made it appear new. But I forgot that with those decorations I can not hide the age of the paper. Paper became very delicate and brittle, and started to two pieces at the folding. Really it made me feel sick. No. I don’t wish to loose My Life. Immediately I took another drawing sheet and pasted My Life on it and placed it flat on my reading table. More worried over My Life, I used to check My Life every day and erase any dust with cotton ball. But I forgot one truth. That is everything in the universe vanishes with time. Always tried to protect My Life.

One day I found My Life producing unpleasant smell. I know that it is due to its aging. I thought of how to make it pleasant smell. I know I can’t make it My Life at several decades back. But I can reduce its intensity. So took out deodorant and sprayed it on My Life. By the time I realized that it mixed up with the colors and erased them, I pressed the spray button second time. My Life…My Life became unbearably dirty looking portrait. Don’t know how to recover My Life from the mistakes I made. No chance of going back and stop doing those mistakes.

Now I am afraid of showing it to others. They may laugh at my stupidity. Even I am afraid to look at My Life. It may laugh at me reflecting my idiotic errors filling beautiful My Life with dirty marks. But, at every stage of time, I made every effort to protect My Life. Now don’t know other than crying over the spilled milk. Hope to see at least one person to check My Life and compliment me.

Sneha



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Sneha







Dec 26, '09



Wishing to write something as a romantic new year wish.
Surprisingly my mind is not supporting for it.
Don’t know the reason. Tried a lot to find the reason.
But mind became very disturbed and awfully sick.
May be it has started to observe the realities.
No…nothing is good. I should not say this
I am an optimist with lots of green dreams.
Even though faced hurdles in life and cried a lot,
Lifted head with smile and moved ahead.

Awareness...yeah, awareness on surroundings
It fills ones heart with pain and helplessness.
Global warming became slow poison in our lives.
Politicians with dirty politics...no good for people
Daily strikes and raasta rokhos…make life miserable
Bad luck…watched sex scandal of first citizen of AP
Such incidents turn women more skeptic to all men
Health problems are becoming challenging day by day

New Year is approaching hiding its face in a veil
My professor said New Year brings good for us.
I replied "I hope so" with a weak voice.

Found this life with lots of surprise packages.
One day it makes one to cry with broken heart.
The immediate day it discloses a wonder thing
It makes ones life to forget the cries of past.

So let me soothe my heart with hope for the best
A New Year that brings people together for good cause
A New Year that sees no frightened humanbeing around
A New Year that provides good food, clothes and shelter to all
A New Year that erases devilish thoughts and fills all hearts with love

With these good thoughts and hopes, let me say
O' New Year...Come with Peace Please!

Sneha








Dec 11, '09



I met my college friend Sucharita very recently. In those days many students tried to get her attention. But she never gave any chance to any boy to misbehave with her. I met that lovely girl Sucharita after 23 years. I took her to my home for tea. She told me her pathetic story. I asked her to write it on the paper and took her permission to publish it here to get the views of readers of this blog.

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Hi all

Sneha has already given a brief introduction of me. So, let me directly come to the point.
I got married 20 years back to a diploma holder in Mechanical engineering. I never thought of luxuries. Came from middle class family. Know how to adjust with what we have. I never had any complaint on low salary of my husband. We were happy couple, enjoying simple pleasures of life.

One day my husband’s friend visited our home. He came from Dubai on vacation. He was working as mechanic there. He invited my husband to work there. As it was very attractive package he agreed. I too didn’t appose. Didn’t want to disturb those triumphant feelings of hubby. One fine day he reached Dubai. In the initial days, we had very good letter communications and, rare phone conversations as he wanted to save money. I didn’t find anything wrong in it.

But, problem rose from my side. Even though my in-laws stay with me, more often they visit their other children on several occasions leaving me alone. In order to avoid the boredom I joined as a typist in an Advocate’s office. It was good time pass. My husband visited our home ones in three years. First time I quarreled with him on this issue. He can save money on everything but he started saving money spent on journeys too. I was unable to digest that. He may be correct. He wanted to buy a flat here. For that he was saving every penny.

But my reasoning was different. One day I asked him on the bed how he was suppressing his sexual desires. He laughed and said he met a woman who came there to work, just like him. I asked him “what about my sexual desires?”
He got angry and started shouting “Y am I doing all this hard work? Just to give you good life. If we gather a new flat, a car and good bank balance, we can live happily. I am doing all these things just for you.”
I didn’t utter any word. Submitted myself to his satisfaction.
In those 15 days of stay here, he took me to newly released films, bought gold bangles, new saris and especially he showed me heaven in the nights.

His parents were proud of him because of his gold item presentations and lump some amount given. But I was in loss. After having 15 days heaven like bed time with him, my suppressed desires came back alive, unable to suppress them. Don’t know how many times I cried alone without knowing how to suppress those feelings.

In our office I had to do all document typing as per the directions from Mr Anand, a senior clerk. He was a widow. Good at heart. As I was in touch with him every day, slowly I got intimacy, used to discuss our personal problems and advise each other if necessary. When he proposed for physical intimacy, I didn’t find anything wrong in it. I know how horrible for married people to sleep alone. I agreed and surrendered myself to him. He was very calm person, used to take care of me by all means. We used to meet hiding from the society. Two years were passed silently.

Somehow my in-laws came to know this. They called me prostitute. They informed my husband. They made such a hungama that every one in our colony started treating me like I may snatch their husbands. My parents and all relatives found me guilty. Husband came on emergency. He gave third degree treatment to me. In-laws encouraged him. Then, he and in-laws and parents and all went to Advocate’s office and called that man Anand with different unbearable names. With that incident, he left his job and don’t know where he has gone.

My husband threw me to roads. Parents cried but didn’t hug me as they r in the shelter of my brother. No one in our colony give a room on rent for me. Advocate advised me to find a new job.

One of my childhood friends Raju helped me to get an attender post in an office located far away from our colony. Took a room there. Lost interest in coming out and mixing with people. Only my attender duty and my room. Lost interest in life.


Don’t know where I went wrong.

Sucharita

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This is a created blog. I came across an article on the women whose husbands left them for several years for the sake of earning money...how those women are starved from sex which is the basic need in the marital life...their agony touched my heart. In such cases , there are chances of having extra marital affairs. Wished to know the pulse of the readers. So this blog.

I really wish to know how people think and act in such situations. Is it right to find fault with such persons?
Your comments please.

Sneha








Nov 14, '09




What happened to my boyfriend?
This is the question troubling my mind these days.

Let me tell you everything.
My boyfriend Sashank is a quiet, cool, sensitive and friendly guy.
I can certify that he is shy type person.
He uses very few words always in control.
Never argues … that is the main reason he became my best bf.

But don’t know what has happened.
He is giving big lectures.
I found it very unusual.
Now-a-days I am afraid to sit with him.
His lectures are frightening me.
One day he gave gyan on Love and concluded “possessiveness in love affair is a devilish act.”
I was so much confused. All of sudden, why he was saying all these things to me?
I asked another friend Raghu. He said “Ohh …don’t worry Sneha. On that day we lost Cricket match to Pakistan.”
His reply made my mind whirl a while.
“Oh God”…these are the only words came from me.
Raghu went back to his cabin.
I started typing program but could not concentrate on it.
My mind still working on Raghu’s words.
“Cricket is just a match between two teams. Impossible to win the match by both teams.
Then why Sashank became that much upset just for loosing cricket match?”
Oops…so many errors in the program. Need a strong tea urgently.
Met Kalyani in the canteen. She asked the reason for my sad face.
Once again I explained Kalyani the unusual behavior of Sashank. And also told her what Raghu said.
She raised a valuable question.
“Sneha…if Sashank is upset with Cricket match, he can say many other things. Why did he convey Gyan only on Love?”
Came back to cabin. But Kalyani’s question made strong impact on me.
“why was Sashank pouring all that gyan on me?
Is he in love with another girl?
Was it an indication that I should not feel possessive of him even if he becomes close to another girl?”
Unable to debug the program properly.
After several hours, I convinced myself to forget Kalyani’s question.

In the evening met Sashank as usual.
I was tempted to say how horrible my day went due to his unusual Gyan sharing.
Before me saying a word, he started pouring Gyan on Relationships.
He said many things on divorce, separation and how to look inside to correct self.
That lecture made me feel sick. Told him some urgent work and ran from that place.
Reached home and contacted Raghu immediately. Asked him “is there any cricket match today?”
Raghu was in surprise “No…why?”
“Nothing”, then cut the phone call.
Kalyani’s question came alive again.
“this time he poured gyan on break-ups in relationships.
Even before starting strong relationship, he was telling me on break-ups.
I have so many dreams on lovely relationships.
How to digest those bitter words.
No. Sashank is surely in affair with another girl.
He wants to break-up our relationship.
Instead of saying directly, he was hinting me in this way”
No one was there to wipe out my tears.
Parents went to our native place to attend a marriage.
Cried for long and fell asleep.

Door knocks disturbed my sleep.
Looked at the wall clock.
It was 3AM. Thought parents returned.
But to my surprise, it was Sashank.
He was in worry.
He said “Are You OK?”
I got angry “why? Came to pour some more gyan on break-ups in relationships?”
His smiling face irritated me a lot.
“See…I am ready to break-up with you. You can continue your love affair with that girl?”
“Hey…stop…stop” he hugged me while I burst into tears.
He took a deep breath “Thank God. Raghu told me about your probing questions and disturbed voice in the recent call.”
While sobbing I said “my possessiveness on my love is a devilish act. I agree. You can leave this devil and enjoy life with that girl.”
He laughed and showed a Penguin book and told me to check chapter 1 and chapter 2. They are on "possessiveness on Love" and "break-ups in relationships".
He said “Sneha…I bought this book recently. Found it very interesting. Wanted to share what I read. Can’t share with friends. They may laugh. I thought you are the ideal person and thought this information is useful for both of us in strengthening our relationship. I am sorry I forgot to tell you about this book.”
I got high BP and hit on his head with that gyan book while he was laughing.

Sneha


PS: Recent blogs of Sailor79 inspired me to pen this blog. Thank you sailor boy.





















Oct 25, '09



A Boy at the Age of 27
Normally with good job
Attractive pay package
Decent office environment

A Boy at the Age of 27
Achieved something
But not at all happy
Wants to achieve more

A Boy at the Age of 27
Tries to turn dreams to reality
Works hard 16 hours a day
Expects more from himself

A Boy at the Age of 27
Keeps in touch with friends
Expands his social circle
Knows it helps in profession

A Boy at the Age of 27
Thinks he is right always
Expresses frank opinions
Enjoys world rotating on finger tip

A Boy at the Age of 27
Feels alone in lonely nights
Needs company of lovable girl
Chats to vent out his emotions

A Boy at the Age of 27
Highly ambitious and energetic
Not so easily accepts failures
Impacts society in his own way

 HAPPY BIRTH DAY IMPECCABLE DUDE

Sneha








Oct 16, '09



Never thought this happens
You came like a thunderstorm
Made me grasp my breath
Gazed at you unbelievably

My reserved nature
Not mingling attitude
Serious working style
Made me alone in the group

People greet me
People talk to me
Every thing formal
Life goes normal

Daily hear laughs
But I don’t laugh
Not because I don’t like laugh
I think what others feel

On the joining day itself
You joked with every one
Every one laughed
Except me

Without knowing each other
Some body joking on me
It irritates me a lot
I hated you for that

But slowly recognized you
The person with healthy attitude
A person who laughs with pure heart
Can be able to spread positive vibe

One day you sat with me
And asked me to laugh
I smiled and looked at you
Found you watching me closely

You repeated “Sneha…Laugh”
I tried to laugh but failed again
Twists and turns of life
Suppressed my laughs

You insisted me again
Tried hard to laugh again
Wounded heart pained
Laugh turned to cry

You hugged me gently
That warmth in your hug
Threw me to cry bitterly
Cried until all pains vanished

Now I am a child again
With innocence and purity
Can laugh rhythmically
To all tunes of life

Sneha








Oct 10, '09


























Friend to Boy in love:

Go ahead my friend but be careful
Success in love is tough exam in life
You should change your life style
In match with that girl’s taste
Wear well pressed decent dress
Don’t wear that six pocket pants
Which you like the most
And prefer to wear on all occasions
Have you checked your shoes?
Try to wear new pair of socks
Are you looking at my dress and shoes?
OK…wear my dress, shoes and this wrist watch too
OK…OK…go for riding on my new Passion
Sure her love rises whenever speed breaker arrives
Hey…take this lovely flower to present her
All the best my friend, come with good news.

Boy in love with cute girl:
Hey…this lovely flower is for you.
You know who selected this?...my friend Raj.
How is my well pressed dress?
You know who presented this?...my friend Raj.
See this Rolex watch with studded stones.
You know who gave it wear today?...my friend Raj.
Let us go for ride on this Passion.
You can hug me whenever speed breakers arrive.
You know who is the owner of this?...my friend Raj.

Cute girl to Boy in Love:
First of all give the address of Raj.
Also, Convey him that I am in love with him.

Sneha



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