I HAVE IN MY HAND TWO   BOXES .WHICH GOD GAVE TO ME TO HOLD.HE SAID"PUT ALL YOUR SORROW IN THE "BLACK BOX". AND ALL YOUR   "JOY"  IN THE "GOLD"

I HEEDED HIS WORDS AND IN THE  TWO BOXES BOTH .MY JOY AND SORROW.I STORED BUT THOUGH THE "GOLD"  BECAME HEAVIER  EACH DAY THE "BLACK" WAS AS LIGHT AS BEFORE

WITH CURIOSITY .I  OPEN THE  "BLACK"  .I WANTED TO FIND  OUT  "WHY" AND I SAW IN THE BASE OF THE BOX A HOLE .WHICH   MY SORROW HAD FALLEN  OUT BY

I SHOWED THE HOLE TO GOD AND MUSED  "I WONDER WHERE  .MY SORROW COULD BE HE SMILE, A  GENTLE  ,SMILE AND SAID "MY CHILD THEY'RE ALL HERE WITH ME "

I ASK GOD " WHY" HE GAVE ME THE BOXES "WHY THE "GOLD" AND THE "BLACK" WITH THE HOLE "MY CHILD THE "GOLD" IS FOR YOU TO COUNT " YOUR  BLESSING"  THE "BLACK " IS FOR YOU TO..."LET GO"

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THERE TIMES  I WONDER WHAT LIFE WOULD BE TO HAVE A DAD IN MY LIFE .I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER WHAT HE LOOK LIKE .SO LAST NIGHT I SPENT HOURS LOOKING IN ALL MY MOM THINGS LOOKING FOR A PHOTO OF MY DAD .I FOUND ONE .MY DAD WAS A HANDSOME MAN
HE HAD BLACK HAIR TALL HAD THE PRETTY  EYES . IT LOOK LIKE HE WAS STARING AT ME

I CRIED FOR A STRANGER THAT I HAD NO FEELING FOR .JUST FOR A MOMENT I FELT EMPTINESS IN MY HEART . I WANT TO BELIEVE DAD DID ONCE LOVE ME .AND HE WOULD HOLD ME IN HIS ARM AND BE PROUD OF  ME

AND HE WAS SO HAPPY I WAS HIS LITTLE GIRL . BUT  JUST FOR A MOMENT  IT WAS MY DREAM .I DIDN'T WANTED TO REMEMBER THE VIOLENCE THE ABUSE THE BEATING MOM
HAD HUMBLE TO THIS MAN  .SHE LOVED HIM  .

BUT MOM WAS FREE .  AND MOM WAS MY FATHER AND MOTHER .SHE HAD GIVEN ME ALL
HER LOVE ....SO LIFE WITHOUT A DAD . IS MY LIFE

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 AS I LOOK BACK ON MY LIFE .I FINE MY SELF WONDERING ALL THE THINGS  MOM DONE FOR ME SHE WAS GENTLE SHE LOVE ME WITH ALL HER HEART  I WISH I COULD SHOW A PHOTO OF MY  MOM   BUT SHE WON'T LIKE THAT .SHE TOLD ME THAT SILLY

BUT I WANT TO REMEMBER THINGS SHE LOVED .SHE LOVE PLANTS  SHE BUY ALL THESE FLOWERS AND ME AND HER GO AND PLANTED THEM .BUT I HATED TO GET MY HANDS DIRTY  SHE HAD A BEAUTIFUL GARDEN FULL OF ROSES AND PINK TULIPS .

NOW I FINE MYSELF PLANTING FLOWERS . MY MOTHER WAS A BEAUTIFUL LADY SHE HAD LONG BLACK HAIR AND HER SKIN WAS BROWN SHE LOOK LIKE SHE HAD A TAN HER FACE WAS ROUND SHE HAD THE PRETTY BROWN EYES

SHE WAS SHORT .SHE WAS SLIM . U  NEVER  SEEN HER WITHOUT MAKE-UP SHE  WEAR JUST A  LITTLE 

SHE LOVE COOKING SHE LOVE SEWING SHE LOVE  THE OUT DOORS SHE LOVE NATURE
WE GO CAMPING AND WE HAD A GREAT TIME .I WAS SCARED   BUT MOM LOVED IT

SHE LOVE ART SHE LOVE MUSIC SHE LOVE, BILLY HOLIDAY ,NEIL, DIAMOND , SHE WAS HONESTY WE LIVE A SIMPLE LIFE  BUT WE WERE HAPPY  MOM WAS CONFIDENCE SHE ALWAYS HAD THIS SADNESS  BUT SHE ALWAYS  HAD A SMILE   SHE WAS INTELLIGENT  SHE ALWAYS 

 WORKED ALL HER LIFE TO GIVE ME WHAT I NEED IT .I REMEMBER IN THE MORNING SHE GET UP AT 6:00 MAKE COFFEE AND I LOVE THE SMELL .SHE WOULD HAVE MY CUP READY FOR ME EVERY MORNING  SHE TELL ME GET UP SILLY GIRL  I CLOSE MY EYES AT NIGHT AND .I SEE HER IN MY DREAMS .I LIKE TO SIT OUTSIDE AND LOOK AT THE STARS  AND WONDER IF SHE CAN SEE ME .ITS SILLY .BUT IN MY HEART IT MAKE ME FEEL WARM JUST

FOR A MOMENT  I WANT TO BELIEVE SHE STILL AROUND  ME  .MY MOM WAS LOVED BY SO MANY PEOPLE   AND I WANT TO BELIEVE ONE DAY WE WILL BE TOGETHER  AGAIN  . SOMETIMES  I  WONDER HOW  I HAVE MADE IT  WITHOUT HER .I TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME

I LOOK BACK AND WISH SHE REMEMBER HOW MUCH   I LOVE U . MOTHER  U NEVER BE FORGOTTEN   YOUR  IN MY HEART  FOREVER AND EVER

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I remember .when God came for My Mom .I  would go to the park.and I just sit there for hours .And see all the people
laughing and the children  running .And I just felt so alone
I had many friend all round me .But no one could take my pain . For a long time I could feel her around me When I came home from work .I pray she would be there I wake up in the morning pray it was a dream  I ask God not to take her But she was in so much pain . She once told me  don't be sad ,God knows what he is doing . And when she left .I was angry for so long at her for leaving me at God for taken her She was all .I had  but there times .I go back to that day
and know.God had his reason and .I have to expect the things .I can not change .But it just been so
hard ."Oh God I Miss Her"  She was my special someone

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Today is a very sad day for me last year April 15,2007 .It was Saturday evening a little pass eight at her bed stood 2 Angels . And I want to believe this Angels  carried mom off to a place far away far above the Third Heavens to a place where there is no pain reside and they sang
And I want to believe .The Angels  Carried her To  the Kingdom .And all The Angels welcome her with open arm . When God came for mom He took part of Me  coping with  the lost had been the harder  thing for me.I want to live  they tell me we choose to be "Happy or sad." Which ever you choose,But its easy to say And They say "Time heal all Wounds, I think its incorrect the wounds "Do not heal " , It  just  doesn't  hurt as much. Today I'm feeling  blue .They say changes make u stronger .They say problems can either make u or break u they say its up to u to be glass or Steel "To Face Life Brave" .But No One Have Ask Me "What I'm..I Steel or Glass ...
    "JUST FEELING BLUE" 
THERE IS ALWAYS ONE MOMENT IN .MY LIFE  THAT MY DOOR OF HAPPINESS CLOSES
BUT IT SOON WILL OPEN AGAIN

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I FOUND A PENNY TODAY .JUST  LAYING ON THE GROUND
BUT ITS NOT JUST A PENNY .THIS LITTLE COIN. I'VE FOUND
ANGELES PUT   THEM  THERE  THATS   WHAT MOM TOLD ME
ANGELES TOSS  THEM DOWN  .I LOVE THAT STORY SHE SAID

WHEN AN ANGELES  MISSED YOU THEY TOSS A PENNY DOWN.
SOMETIMES JUST TO  CHEER YOU UP  . SO DON'T PASS BY THAT
 PENNY   WHEN YOU'RE    FEELING " BLUE "  IT MAYBE A PENNY

FROM HEAVEN  THAT AN   ANGELES TOSSED TO ..." YOU "

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WE NEVER KNOW WHEN DEATH IS SO CLOSE .I WANT  TO TELL U  ABOUT MY FRIEND FRANCE CHORLEY HE WAS FROM ENGLAND   HE WAS NOT A HAPPY MAN HE FELT LIFE WAS  NOT FAIR HE WORK FOR 25 YEARS AND ONE DAY THEY LET HIM GO  MY FRIEND FRANCE WAS NOT A  HAPPY MAN  HE WAS ALIVE BUT FELT  DEAD INSIDE HE ALWAYS THOUGHT OF ME AS A FRIEND  AND HE WAS MY SPECIAL  FRIEND  AND I CRIED WHEN I FOUND OUT HE LEFT  ME I NEVER MET HIM AND I NEVER CHATTED WITH HIM WE ONLY E-MAIL EACH OTHER HE WAS A LOYAL FRIEND HE WAS A VERY SERIOUS MAN I SEND HIM VIDEO THAT WERE FUNNY I TELL HIM U NEVER LAUGH DO U WHEN I FELT SO ALONE I SEND HIM E-MAIL TO TELL HIM TODAY I READ EVERY E-MAIL I SEND HIM HE DIED FEB 7,2008  I   FEEL SUCH A LOST .  WE E-MAIL HIM EVERY DAY .HE WAS MARRIED HAD A TWO SONS AND A WIFE WHO HE LOVE WITH ALL HIS HEART .MY FRIEND WAS  67  YEARS  OLD   HE LOVE "SHAKESPEARE " HE LOVED PLACIDO,DOMING AND HE LOVE "CHRISTMAS IN VIENNA ".HE WAS A GREAT FRIEND I MEET HIM IN CYBER WORLD BUT HE WAS MY SPECIAL FRIEND HE WILL BE MISS HE HAD A BIG HEART ON MY BIRTHDAY WE WOULD HAD ONE YEAR KNOWING EACH OTHER HE TOLD ME ALL WEEK I DON'T FEEL WELL MARGARITA HE TELL ME I BE YOUR FRIEND FOR EVER ,MAY HE REST IN PEACE HE WROTE BY SHAKESPEARE "IF MUSIC BE THE FOOD OF LOVE PLAY,ON,GIVE ME EXCESS OF IT  " IN BEAUTIFUL MUSIC " THERE IS NO SIN,ONLY BEAUTY HAPPINESS . MY SPECIAL FRIEND U BE IN MY HEART FOREVER

( FRANCE CHORLEY  IS ALIVE )

IT WAS FEB 7,2008 .THAT FRANCE CHORLEY SON SEND ME A E-MAIL TELLING ME HIS FATHER DIED .WILL .I JOIN THIS SITE AND HE WAS THERE .HE WAS ASKING FOR FRIENDS .I SEND HIM A MESSAGE .BUT MY SCREEN NAME IS ( SILINDA26)  .BUT MY ZONE HAD MY REAL NAME(  MARGARITA ) .GOD IF HE IS ALIVE .I'M GLAD .BUT I ASK MY SELF WHY
LIE .BUT HE WAS THERE WHEN I HAD NO ONE .AND I WAS LOST IN A WORLD OF PAIN .WHEN MOM HAD JUST PASS AWAY .HE WAS A  FRIEND WOW( HE IS ALIVE ).HE HAD NOT ANSWER ME YET? .AND HE WON'T .AND WHO CARES HE WAS ONCE THERE WHEN I NEED HIM MOST . GOD BLESS HIM

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LOVING WITHOUT LOSING YOUR SELF U ARE IN LOVE AND IT FEEL WONDERFUL THIS LOVE IS DIFFERENT THAT U CAN DREAM OF

AND U ARE PREPARED TO DO ANYTHING TO MAKE IT LAST TO PREVENT THIS SHIP FROM SINKING U WORK HARD TO STEER THIS RELATIONSHIP INTO A SAFE HARBOR

IN THE PROCESS U LOSE YOURSELF AND YOUR RELATIONSHIP BECOME ALL CONSUMING U GO OUT OF YOUR WAY TO CREATE  A WONDERFUL RELATIONSHIP

THERE FEAR THAT U WILL GIVE MORE THAN U RECEIVE  WE CAN BE LOVED EVEN IF U ARE NOT PERFECT

WE CAN BE LOVED WITH OUT GETTING LOST IN LOVE . LOVE IS THE MOST POWERFUL HUMAN LESSON U ARE EVER TO LEARN

UNDERSTAND THAT LOVE IS NOT SOMETHING TO BE FOUND  RATHER IT IS  U TO BE SHARED, U CAN LOVE WHOLE HEARTEDLY

WITHOUT FEAR .DON'T TURN YOUR BACK ON LOVE EVERY   TIME IT  TOUCHES U  .WHEN U GIVE UP ON LOVE U GIVE UP ON YOUR SELF

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