December, 9 2007.
“DEEWANGI”

Tears filled my eyes,
When I thought today!
I knew nothing about you
You knew nothing about me
We initiated friendship
Exchanged scraps n messages
You shared blogs n pictures
I posted comments
You liked them
You admired them
You honoured them
We found similarity of our thought n emotions
Our sensitivity was alike
We found complete harmony in our mind frequencies
We trusted each other
Our messages turned personalized
Unknowingly, we were becoming closer to each other
It appeared that bodies are two but soul is one!
You gave me more attention, more encouragement!
You took care of me more than mothers
Unconciously, I made you my hope!
My everything!
Rather,
I considered you my god!
The goddess of Love!
I started feeling “something”, “something” in my heart for you!
You also implied to feel likewise for me!
You became indispensable for me!
I longed for your presence in my zone, for personal messages n scraps!
I became addict of you!
I felt uneasy n uncomfortable for your absence!
I desired to keep in touch with you all the time (24/7), uninterrupted!
It happened many times that we were online at the same time, but
We could not contact.
One day (11/26), it happened!
I logged in n you initiated “Hi!”
We exchanged some words, some lines..
I was so happy to get you online that I became mad!
You told me you were busy n could not follow me
I continued typing n sending you my thoughts
You did not respond
It shocked me severely!
The more I felt happy earlier
The more I felt sad n tense later
You left me alone!
Floating in the air!
Floating in the space!
Chasing you!
Talking with you!
But! …
Although you were there
You did not respond!
I felt ignored very badly!
I felt highly insulted!
I felt so ashamed of that! …
I felt so sorry for that! …
I felt so guilty for that! ..
I wasted your time!
I disturbed you!
I behaved in an uncultured manner!
I abstained from writing to you for yourself!
You also abstained!
I wished to tell you about movie you recommended.
My comments remained with me!

(Continued)

AANSU!
Bohat muddat k baad kal shab
Kitabe mazi ko main nay khola
Bohat say chehray nazar main utray
Bohat say namon pay dil paseeja
Ik esa safha bhi uss main aaya
Likha hua tha jo aansuoon say

K jis ka unwan sirf “Tum” thay
Kuch aor aansoo phir uss pay tapkay
Phir uss say aagay main parh na paya
Kitabe mazi ko band ker kay
Tumhari yadoon main kho gaya main
Agar tum miltay to kesa lagta?
Inhee khiyaloon main so gaya main!