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Aug 02, '07



IDEAS OF ANCIENT INDIAN SAGES WHEN THEY ARE RIGHT AND WHEN THEY ARE ALSO NOT VERY RIGHT ( BECAUSE OF JUDGEMENTALPERSPECTIVES  OR   QUICK LABELLING MINDSETS)  , ARE MORE PROFOUND THAN   ARE  COMMONLY UNDERSTOOD.
INDEED THE ETERNAL HUMANITY IS  RULED BY LITTLE ELSE. THEY BUIT the eternal  truths  UPON THE PREMISE THAT TWO CONFLICTING VIEWS AND THEIR ARDENT PROMOTERS COULD   BOTH   BE SURPRIIINGLY  AND   ABSOLUTLY CORRECT BEING IN OPPOSITE SIDES   ON THE  GIVEN THEME.
THE BASIC IDEALS OF   HUMAN  ATTITUDE EXHORTED BY THE PROPOUNDERS OF THE  VEDANT IS  THAT , EVEN--MINDEDNESS  IN ALL SITUATIONS   IN  ALLTIMES AMIDST,   PROFIT AND LOSS, PLEASURE AND  PAIN ,  SICKNESS    AND  HEALTH    V ICTORY AND   DEFEAT, CRITICISM   AND  PRAISE , IS  THE MOST PRECIOUS QUALITY.
VEDANT IS A  SCIENTIFIC   EXPOSITION OF TRUTH.
IT EXPOUNDS TRUTH .METHODICALLY, LOGICALLY.
VEDANT DOES NOT RELY ON  THE AUTHORITY OF ANY PRECEPTORS.

ITS TRUTH IS ITS  OWN  AUTHORITY.   NO   MASTER  OR MESSIAAH CAN CLAIM TO BE THE FOUNTAIN SOURCE OF VEDANT TRUTHS.
NO  RELIGION   HAS ANY  HOLD ON VEDANT  AND TRUTH  ESTABLISHED BY IT.
THEY  ALWAYS  BELONG   TO ONE AND  ALL NO MATTER  WHAT CULTURE AND COUNTRY.
IT BEARS NO DISTINCTION OF CASTE OR CREED,COMMUNIITY OR COUNTRY.   ITS UNIVERSAL APPRECIATION     APPEALS TO ALL LOVERS OF TRUTH.
( AYURVEDA AND PATANJALI YOGA FOR EXAMPLE , HAVE IN THE PRESENT DAY WORLD  NOT  ONLY  EARNED THEIR UNEQUIVOCAL  VIABILITY BUT OVERTAKEN THE MYTH WESTERN THINKERS( MODERNISTS ) WEAVED AROUND  THE VALUES UPHELD BY  VEDANTIC TREATISES)
RATIONAL SCIENTIFIC APPROACH AS  INHERENT  FORCES STEERING EVOLUTION OF    THE SUPREME NISSION OF VEDANT IS EVIDENTLY CLEAR  IN THE  FACT THAT NO   ORGANISED RELIGION   HAS     B EEN COCEIVED OR SUGGESTED ASTHE CATALYST TO LIFE AND DELIVERENCE.(SALVATION)
 PRESENT DAY RELIGIOUS ORGANIZATION IS GOVERNED BY PERSONALITIES  JUST AS MUCH   IN THE LINE OF POLITICAL PARTIES.
THERE IS A SAYING  THAT ,
GRAMMER  IS  THE  GRAVE  OF  LANGUAGE.
TO SAVE GRAMMER IF YOU CAN,  KEEP IT   (LANGUAGE IS  INVALUABLE AND LANGUAGE WILL BE DEAD IF THERE IS NO GRAMMAR THERE)
RIGID PRECEPT SAPS THE VITALITY OF RELIGION
THE INTELLIGENT EDUCATED  MOERN YOUTH  WOUD RESIST   AND  DETEST RIGIDITY ,DOCTRINES, DOGMAS. 
THEY REVOLT AGAINST UNNATURAL  EDUCATION.
TAKE A LOOK  AT VEDANT IN ITS PRISTINE GLORY.
MAKE AN INDEPENDENT  STUDY.  IN ORDER  TO  ASSESS THE  TRUTH  INGRAINED IN IT.
WITHOUT AUTHORITY  EXCEPT  ITS OWN ENDURING SCIENCE.
GBS   REMARKED-
THE  MOST  INTELLIGENT  MAN   HE HAD  EVER  MET IN HIS LIFE IS  A-   TAILOR WHO TAKES MEASUREMENT EVERY TIME.WE TEND TO   LET OURSELVES HYPNOTISED  BY OTHERS VIEWS.ACCEPT   THEM   PASSIVELY BCAUSE SAY ,  IT IS THEOLDEST RELIGION,.. BELIEVED  BY  VAST  NUMBERS  OF  ITS  MEMBERS, OR BECAUSE  THE DOCTRINE  COMES FROM GREAT PERSONALITIES.
VERY FEW INDEED GET TO THE  MERIT OF THE TEACHING OF A RELIGION.
MUCH LESS IMBIBE THE SPIRIT.
BLIND FOLLOWING EVERY WHERE.
SUCH APPROACH  BRING ABOUT SPIRITUAL  EPIDEMIC DESTROYING HUMAN RACE.
 IF RELIGION HAS TOSERVE THE PEOPLE IT HAS TO BE JUDGED ON ITS OWN MERIT.

THE STUDY OF VEDA ..REVEALS THAT -
IT  IS FOUNDED   ON ITS OWN AUTHORITY  
IT IS  BASED ON REASON ,LOGIC,
WE NEED TO  APPROACH  THE  VEDAS ,AS YOU WOULD  DO WITH SCIENCE OR  MATHE MATICS.
IN VEDIC WAY GURUS DRAW THEIR INSPIRATIONS FROM THEIIR SELF.THE SAME FOUNTAIN HEAD IS WITHN ALL OF   YOU.
THERE IS NO USE IN RELYING ON EXTERNAL SOURCES OR FORCES.FOR GETTING INNER STRENGTH,
NO ONE NEED TO RETIRE TO THE SOLITUDE OF FOREST FOR STUDY OF VEDANT.
NO  ONE   REQUIRES  A   LIFE OF RESIGNATION NOR LEADING LIFE OF AN   ASCETIC.
BUT WHAT IS OF HELP  IS A TECHNIQUE OF DYNAMIC LIVING .








Jul 06, '07



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LIVE WITH IT WITHOUT  ESCAPING FROM IT
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The anecdote narrated here attempts to focus on
- What gets human beings
so much entangled to desires ?
What leads us astray from growing ,
learning to find options, meanings,
to heal, to honour our world, the people, and the
beautiful nature filled with thrilling environs.
To think of a n age-old practice of monkey-trap,
concerns us with our humanness and links
our past ,present and future.
It was an empirically determined animal hunting  method.
A narrow-mouthed pot
was used by the tribal folks to round up monkeys.
Some nuts were put inside the pot.
When the monkey comes across the
trapping bait he becomes   curious .

And anticipating  the existence of eatables  he
Makes a few tries and finally
takes a fist-full of nuts -as much more
as he could grapple,  putting his hands in to  it.  Then it feels hard for the nut-filled fist to slither out of the narrow-mouthed pot.
Unable to take his hand off the pot he starts
getting   panic.
He then getsincredibly  terrified apprehending
a monster  might  be   living inside the pot,
This way the primates are overpowered
By the watchful hunters
In a state of desperation and fearsome shock. 
IF  HE    HAD   LOOSENED   HIS   GRIP,
dropped  the big   pick of nuts  inside 
he could have pulled  his hand out of the twinge-pot.
Unwilling to escape from desiring for
even more than what ever amount of stuff
would have got him an easy way out
the poor creature had to fall a hostage to his captors.
The human predicaments may 
 often be perceived as a closely  connected 
process of nurturance need .... for an insatible greed. 










Jun 26, '07



Attacking deadlier Thoughts
This is in response to a n extra- special friend 's query whether I try and get things confused )

Did I confuse you ? Not surprising ! I often quite forget that , "The man who removes a mountain, begins by carrying away small stones."

Talking of confusion ? well , I can understand, when trying to dis-entangle oneself from the web of sub-conscious he has to evaluate how prepared was he to face life in a given moment or on a particular reference point.

We mostly forget to remember that , "Survival is the second law of Life ".
( But what is that first ? "Simple !! Its that we are all one . Humanity can survive by deliberate choice of conscious policy. !!")

And all you wanted to know is I had asked you may check out my recent blogs , Easy ? Apart from this, I dare say you don't make anyone unhappy.

Lets elaborate confusions commonly experienced, and kind of the situation that we face in life with evident closer affinity to the above.
We seem to ignore that life is transient .And we overlook biological forewarnings about transient nature of life, graying hair, wrinkling skin and falling teeth. Instead we try to camouflage the reality putting up a bold hypocrisy taking audience for granted..
Confusion needs to be dealt with by building up connection with the inner reason and snapping tie with the outer flow of events for a while.
Please try and take a view of this fable.
A man ...a shopkeeper in a small town put up a board –"Fresh Fish Sold Here." A passerby pointed out, "The word fresh was unnecessary, as no one buys stale fish !"At this the shopkeeper removed the word from the board,
Another passerby told that the word sold was superfluous. Because no one gave away fish for free.
So the man removed the word "sold".
Why write "here" asked another. Was not the smell of fish enough to indicate that.?
The man wiped out "here" bewildered.
Yet another muttered that, the word "Fish" was un necessary, adding, "obvious, he was not selling roses. "
And ultimately the board was removed.
Similarly, Our problems will disappear too if only we apply our mind.
We should be part of the solution , like the Pandavas in the great epic of Mahabharata. Not part of the problems like the Kauravas.
We should be aware of whether the mind is directed towards or from achieving the goal .
A mental conversation with Lord Krishna narrated in the epic, can indicate us about how to make a right choice..
Like the Pandavas when soliciting Krishna's help before the commencement of the War of Kuuksheetra, ensured that their goal was never to go behind out of sight of Krishna. In order to earn his favour from the psychological imprint of His grace.
Bheesmaa , Karna and Duryoddhana had unwittingly lost sight of this crucial option.
Krishna symbolized energy of joy, beauty and love. An interesting situation of judgment between flexibility and firmness, playfulness and commitment was on the offer..
Duryodhan was stubborn and jealous but he never knew the power off surrender.
On the other hand Point in question was what kind of energy field are you entertaining in your life. One has to be consistently aware of this. Set a goal after the example of Arjuna.
Arjunna was committed and skillful.
Battle of Kurukshetra reflects the state of individual mind. There is a War of these patterns and energies perennially going on in our minds.
It is not the situations that pain us but the state of our mind.
Thoughts attack us deadlier than the heart attacks.











Jun 25, '07



Nature functions freely and with ease . The law of least action and no resistance at work. Observe ! Be amused . Might be you are astounded. Grass does not try to grow   It just grows.. Fish does not try to swim   It just swims.   Flower   do not try to bloom.  No one beckons them to wafer fragrance. They  even dont seem  lik they feel  doing so.  Birds do not try to fly.A bud on the tree does not tell the branch that it was going to pop up the next fine morning.   All these are intrinsic nature.
Its our own nature as Humans to dream and make our dreams to manifest in to physical form. When in harmony with Nature, you make use of the principle of least action .
You therefore should be established in the knowledge of your true self.
Unfortunately you start to desire power,  control and to achieve your goal  ,  seek to push and even shove other people.
You are duped to get carried away. You counter act with your spontaneous care free ness. you intercept the inner simplicity.  You not only arrest the free flow of ideas and its  getting forged in to action but you waste  a  lot of energy.
If you seek money, power or fame to fulfill your ego, you  have to spend considerable mental energy chasing illusions.instead of enjoying your moment.  As you want   more and  more money, you cut  off the flow of energy.to yourself
You interfere with Nature.
If  your  actions are motivated by Love your  energy is multiplied.
You then can   create anything including wealth.You can think of your physical body as a device tfor controlling energy.
If you   know how to generate , store  and expend energy, you can create any amount of wealth. Pay attention  to  that Ego consumes great amount of energy..
When your internal reference point is ego, you want power, approval from others.you waste your time.
Internal reference point   is  your Spirit.    It fosters motive to harness the power of love and you use energy creatively.
There are three components of law of least effort.
Thee ffirst is ,Acceptance.
Simply means make acommittment.
This moment- just this very one  is   the culmination of all moments of the past.  Because this moment is as it is.
If you struggle against the moment you struggle against the entire Univese. You can wish for things in future to be different.  But this moment you have to accept as it is.

The second component is :
Responsibility . It does not mean blaming any one or any thing including yourself, for your situation.  It means the ability to have a creative response, to the situation. As it is now.
All  the problems contain the seeds of opportunity. This awareness allows you to transform the moment to a  better one.
The third component :
It is defence-lessnessThat implies you have relinquished the need to convince or persuade, others of your point of view.
If you observe people around you you willsee that they spend ninety percent of their time defending their point of view.
If you relinquish the need to defend, you gain access to enormous energy. that  you have wasted.
When you remain open to all points of views, your dreams , desires will   ffow with Nature's desire. Then you can start  your initiatives without attachment, You wait   for  the appropriate season for your desire to bloom in to reality.

Tag: THE  CULMINATION  OF  ALL PAST  MOMENTS  IN  TO  THE ONE  THAT  IS.HERE AND  NOW.










Jun 24, '07



An inscrutable phenomenon looking very like   'A   Magic spell'  spins off incredibly varied choices of answers to the single enduring Question ,.....Is it  therefore,  now as at  every other  times  in the long long past,  that   the Enquiry  in  to Brahma, the Absolute Spirit,  is all  about a search  for a  more  deeper  and most lasting  value of living the life that you are ?
For the art of awakening joy in creative expression of 
our natural ability is also the art of journeying in to the unknown that has propensity to connect the parallels.
The  meaning and  purpose of our existence have troubled men in all ages.Puzzling  choices of wide  range of possible  answers have been introduced.Some  of  them   imply   to   explore an answer to,   1. If   human  existence  is   a  random  event in  the  path  of  evolution ...?
2. Is  it  grounded on  a  greater  principle  of  life ...?
3. Is   there a certain law of life  attempting at defining any meaning or purpose assigned for  human  existence at all ...?
4. Is  it  just  meant  to be a great Spiritual  discovery ...?
In   eerie silent  valley of  the minds of great  Vedic  Seers these thundering Quests   gathered  turbulent storms.
   The thinking man had   had to writhe under burdens of  agony in the hour of  personal peril  as  when also some one's social moorings  was lost  in  crises. 
  At some  point  of time  down  the line   the matter was given a distilled precision.  And now  what remained to  be sorted out   was ...
Is there an Absolute Spirit Unifying all the  concepts ?
Hegel's dialectical method   of  reasoning offered a teleological  perspective to further  the discourse. The  " structure of  consciousness"  of Husserlian   phenomenology tried  to  give  an  opposite  insight  in  to mystery of  minds  of  men .
Sartre  asked,  Is  there no  meaning at all  ?  Are  we  condemned  to  live  free  to  our  own  ways  ?  The  Upanishads  provided effective  clues in the   shape  of  "Neti!, Neti!,"--Not  this ,Not  This!
In  other  words,  it  is  not  within  our  intellectual  grasp.  It  is  beyond  the  working  of the human   mind.  It  is   only  that what  lies in  the stillness  beyond  the  reach  of  mind.
Stillness  of  mind  comes  through  the practice of yoga. Real  Yoga disciplines  tossing mind, enables one in  to  a stillness   beyond mind through meditation.
Sankar  spelt  out  that  existence  could  be just a   Maya,  illusion. (Sankar's Adwaita Vada ).
Nagarjuna's  Shunya Vada (Way of decoding mysteries of life ),   also suggests  the same  lesson   wanting  to  call life  unreal ,  Vivarta,   or   Appearance  only.
The  quest remains.....
Could  there  be  any meaning to  the  Phenomenal  World   ?
Suffering, at times is   looked at  as  a  catalyst   that  goes  beyond  the  surface  reality.    But  suffering  helps  attempt  understanding   the  purpose life. as survivors of holocausts would reveal from personal experiences.
Ultimately,man should not ask what  the  meaning of life is !!!    But  rather recognise,that ,it is he who is  asked -this  question.   Each man is asked by life.
To  life  he  can  only  respond  by  being responsible.
You can try and discover a meaning of life.
a) By  doing a deed,
b) experiencing a value
c) or by  suffering,
For has not it been said that  the road less travelled is  the  spiritual path,
Right next to it is the regular highway of life .....??? 









May 15, '07



The greatest of whales could be raised in the vast desert.
Provided both who love so will .
---------- an ordinary lovestory follws to an inordinate resolve -----------
one thing is sure that the talking voice- the poet Swapna who is deeply absorbed in wondering about a resonant melody of her own song with her reflective emotional perceptions. She has been fiddling with her feeling venting them out in scraps then thinking of saving it as a draft now, wanting that it ought to be edited in turn then and again intermittently till it is brought forth insightfully composed as a precious treasure in the ultimate form of a sublime symphony of a primeval love song..
Also Swapna could understand and accommodate the unbearable stinging yearnings of her beloved listener telling him not to stop listening closely in the thick dark of night to the love songs sung by her fantasized imaginary -fabricated singers such as night birds and crickets . Pleading the crazy meek admiring lover that these creatures would heal up the agonizing - obsessions of both the banks of river. For two banks of river exist apart from each other because of water stream in the middle. The banks will be ever apart. Having been destined to carry the cool perennially vital stream of life elements flowing ,to nourish the entire living communities in the valley of natural world and loving creatures up in the valley, flourishing their vitality of life sustaining the legacy of core elements of eternal love drama.. However the conceptualized truth that the banks cant become united together was something the lover listener feared to be true. He still let himself deluded that the poet was merely juggling, tossing up n down the soothing words and experimenting with or imploring in to the curiosity builder-exercises of fine-tuning prelims . She was perhaps giving a hint by alluding how its as real to listen to beautiful raga music notes just at the sighting of the veena placed out there before someone. Similarly she went on elaborating how by looking at a pile of rocks a person of vision could perceive of a resplendent cathedral.
Then in the end came along the hour of truth n realization. There in the dark night 's council of trees , owls crickets n other night birds the poet's love song was heard loud n clear by all awaking love struck souls lifting the fragile confidence of our lover in the story. That the despairing admirers began to be bemused . Poetic aesthetics apart , our love worn maiden's response in silent rendition n its assimilation by love-savvy nightly air answered the pangs which pierced the prospective peer of the lady in love. Poet Swapna n her peer partner then began to live willingly wide- apart in deep union ever after ...... 








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May 10, '07



Axis of The Obvious

We Live in the way we feel is right ? Don't we ?
The living are made of a substance called time known as the 4rth Dimension.(what can be the 5th=?)
Under the heaven there is a reason to every thing.A time to every purpose- to be born, a time to die,to plant ,to pluck up,time to mourn, to laugh n dance
to cast away stones at others , to gather stones together .
Time has an intellectual, emotional n spiritual reason. Every spell of time goes with a paradigm condition and social expectation ,that acknowledges n validates it.
Its a constant game of checking out our own garbed identity
Axis Of .
A "Pehchan Kaun?" blink beams through the unbarred window of a middle class shower looking for sieging and hooking someon's attention in the opposite balcony. This is a self-gratification via reverse voyeurism .Stealing a glance of vital cleavage is as pleasing to the noticed as to the owners of ogling eyes.Underclad unbothered sun bathers n sneaking oglers have mutually exclusive interests..The sexual freedom ten years hence and transposed in either Dellas or Delhi might mean not to have sex with the husband.Advice to rewrite marriage vows to read as "until infidelity do us apart." is likely to find large following.
Woman and man are nature's mystic continents ceaselessly at war wth each other. Its weird kind of a battle when you sleep with your enemy so that
both emerge finally winners and afresh with their spirits lifted higher than before .However they exhilarate in fostering the shinning saga of the most intelligent living race on Earth- the story of humanity that will surge ahead beyond the age-less evolution in enhancd AWARENESS. The saga of perennial hostility between my truth n my imposter voice of potential lie is parallel to the above n therefore worth reflecting.

I was taught myriads of life- sagas by countless wise seers before i was born .
Is it not nature's crafty science ,unfathomable to seminary- pundits ?
Ideas are intrinsically inherited but social and cultural ambience developes them
Thus we learned how to be human..The ancient story tellers told us who we are -a boy or a girl
Who we should be an who we should not.
We also create our own story, and discover that the story has a voice.
Its called the thinking, the voice of knowledge.This voice is not real but
I hear them . They live in my head. It is the Liar " I "'s voice. It can't see the truth.
It speaks stronger and louder ,but its also the voice of my language. It HOOKS others' attention.
This language is what I have learned to speak. And I have learned many lies.Though there are
conflicts between lies sometimes still I believe in most lies.
However there is my SPIRIT which is the truth - that lives in my heart and my truth has no language. it cant speak . If it does n't speak then what does it do ? who then listens to my lies ?
Who is I speak to, and what do i speak ? And Who this " I " is ?
The assumptions , thousands of them are accepted as truth .
For example, we believe we know what we are. We may argue when jealouss ,we say,
"Oh this. is the way we are ."
But truth is that I am not sure about that.
The ancients said : "And you will know the truth and the truth will set you free."
In the end of the day we have two rules to follow.

A)
When your head will stop thinking and talking, you will experience inner peace.
So don't believe yourself , your voice, for then you let the lie survive. And when you dont believe your lies you can make better choice on truth.
B)
Do not believe anybody else. When people talk you have no idea if its coming from the liar - head or his heart.
Last impression :

Refuse to believe your own lies.
You will be free of fear drama and conflict.
(The story of humanity will Go on until the end of the journey Let me be fair to speak from my heart but it might sound hollowed . So some one from either of the continents of circie may play the judge
to clinch its purity expriment.All adults invited to listen the liars' chariot rattling down the ceaseless centuries.

Listners of the" I' m a Liar" story pl xcuse fr killin ur time
u could have otherwise spent this time to dvelope your own stories.
Old girls n boys intending to wander in to these pages of my story are welcome .
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Mar 14, '07



There was this orphaned young fellow anthropologically aeons remote from us . He had no one dearer to whisper a soothing feeling that he cared most about. The heavily shaken-soul and empty eerie hours of cocooned life one day threw him off in to the street .
A funny rare mask which he had once found somewhere now did all the tricks for him .As he started taking to the street stages he vastly enjoyed the shows  than   himself being a real entertainer. Wearing the bizarre mask he performed those weird mimicries resembling to monkey-pranks of random variety . The magic mask helped produce many a varied moods and faces  expressing   extreme  emotions or animated behaviour  casting characters of    the proverbial monsters and dragons. Watching the  reactions like  the children’s shrill-hauling and frightened facial nuances of young yelling   girls turning queer glints at him while striding fast away, infused un fathomable impact in him.
To begin with he was no big draw at all  in theBazaar  except making some children laugh  some others    scared to flee  for safety. He still continued to hold on to Bazaar bye-lanes for he was very sure about quite a few flashing teen faces seeming  fairly  astonished   by  his  humourous stunts.  He was  unfazed by all  the  myriads of   folks  trashing him   as stupid. The showman  persisted on because his search for recognition had turned him   to a  evolving    seeker of status. 
Of countless men and women that stopped at his free Bazaar dramatics one cute and curious face seemed to appear  fairly pretty loving and caring .   Once as she got past him leaving a melodious strain of some soul-searching song the resonance filled him with a new lexicon of love . The Bazaar of din and bustle catalyzed his    sharp learning  of the moods ,    effect  of  senses and secret emotional   fakings of the fellows around . He soon turned out into a master conjurer of jokes and pranks that he enjoyed absolutely for he sure was himself entertained more than those in the audience.. However , he had been an easy  victim  to the only     one singularly reining Empress of  his  heart .    He  soon  grew  desperate to rediscover that pretty face lost in the crowd but in vain. Burrowing through Bazaar crowds cracking his bubbly feats he felt weary and often went to sleep without removing his mask. Possibly he felt no need to .
With  days rolling in  to  months  and  months  to  years  little  did  he  know  about  the  mask  which started  to  cling  on  to his  face by some bond as  inseparable    as    strong  and  natural   .
  But one evening on his way back he came across the coveted young face . As besieged by a hallucinating tide of infatuation he did a frog- leap from behind before the dusky beauty. But,
Alas ! She turned away  the  next  moment   to shy off afoot. Terribly frightened   at  his leap-frogging.     Persisting on  ,  self- belied the performer followed her  behind and   repeatedly  cried aloud “ Its Me ! Its Me !”
She had left him broke .   He  slowed  down  to a steady   forlorn  space  on  the muddy  wet  seabeach  - only to gaze at the breakers' rhythmical   beating on to the eerie empty sea- shore beneath the dim evening sky.















Feb 10, '07



Perhaps I  was  woken  up shaken   terribly by the unanticipated windy downpour  from a   darkening  distant  cloud swiftly fleeting across our sky above.Then in a flash I gathered my senses to  find out what pushed me to undergo the weird slumber in this forlorn late afternoon.  I was  all  alone  there  in  the vast  open  mystic  expanse.The sunny  day   was slowly slipping  in to lay  coiled  inside the cool  nighty dark  basket. I was   under the  echanting spell of  a voueristic  susceptibility .The raunchy scenes of love game  between  day  and  night    was being  dramatically  enacted   in  the silhoutte  western  stage.  Absorbed in the sensuous flavour of that pristine glory might  perhaps have  driven me  crazy to  implore the intensity and the bizzare  energy  invested by players of    those exotic  natural .phenomenon.Running  my  palms on my eyes and feeling  allover  my physical being I  made it  sure once more that  I was vertically  awake  with eyes wide open .Yet to my utter dibelief  and bewilderment I paused to wonder ,how come.  I failed to  take notice of so much of tumult sweeping the immediate  surroundings.
  Toddling  throuth the muddy  pools  of  smelly  water soaked vergin  earth   I landed  under the secured   out  reaching shelter of my host  awaiting ever to offer  soothening  comfort . As  I  was  heralded in  to a  comforting welcome zone I  used my  palms to  wipe out dripping  water from my hair and  face. 
I  was not  quite finished saying my customary  thanks to my friend , as even I listened this voice  of my  friend  answering  my intractable wonderings on how did I  enjoy   a sweet slumber while out rightly  staying awake ..!  and ,never the less a flash whipping storm could leave little impact on my tranced soul ....!
And   Thus  came my  friend's  reply.  "Dear Friend ! You had  almost had your true self come out of  your  body which was reduced to just  a form  bereft of cognigence. It  all started when you wanted me to tell you the time. As I tried to explain -how I see no sense in time's denominations,  or  divisions  .For I always live in the present.  As I go on rendering my services   naturally   -time gets its characterizations and  acclamations  accordingly.Then  I started to tell you the story of a slumbering  fairy named Lena to illustrate my theory of  timeless living of values to signify Nature's law.What you seemed to have thought yourself of your  falling asleep was in reality that you were straining your ears to grasp the story I was going to narrate.And then came the  storm. You however  never bothered to rush in to my rational  shelter . In the Process  you  got thoroughly drenched. Probably   Humans when fall stupidly for  somebody they seem  to  appear  like  behaving absolutely curiously.Now ,look up  the thick dark sky . Do as I say . And its time you left for home .All  I  can  assure you  is  I 'll  always   be  willing to tell the story  sometime again.But remember  in deep  slumber  like  trance no  matter what the object of craving - you see more  truely deeply  when  eyes widely  shut. Like  in this point of time you wanted to see ,-how was the fairy ;s slumber charmed you so  much   enough  that  you  failed to see neither the  storm  nor my benign consistent existence. Okay Dear !  Be my idea of time as it may, its but  time for you to  get to home . Good Bye!''
  I  fumbled awhile  before   saying  Good night,  to my wiser friend of fixed vision of life ,   the big old  Banyan Tree,was left to live inspite of time-arithmatics , mute alone  in vast timeless open.







Feb 05, '07



Walking  intermittantly  down  back  home  taking   a  less travelled  road   is  my   usual  preferred practice.      On many of those  strollings   I  find myself  being  lured by  my   fancies for certain rarer  opportunities   coming along on   the way.     The nuanced   manifestations  of  un folding  images   portraying human hopes and despire,  dreams  and disappointments, aspirations  and  defeats -all  find easy ways to  get  encrypted in  your   most private  and tender inner  sites.      It was  another   experience in that series ,   today,       a closely identifiable  variant of  the ones  fetched from    my  wanderings   in    to   the   mountains,  sea-shores, bushes , wild woods.,river banks and  village-alleys   with   fresh  cow-dung  droppings , wafering a  familiar  smell  generously , filling the  air-space   between rows of hutments.  
A       semblance of  a passing  storm    comprising  ofseveral shorter  spells  of  showers , a cold timid hurricane raising dry leaves littered around high into the air ,  whirl winds of grey dust chasing one another on the  wide-open- sandy  river-bed,  and some tiny-sized  hailstones pittering on to  a sun-backed earth emaneting  plenty of smelly vapour,  are  in  all , what   could be the sum up of the  net  effect that the slogging afternoon had to  cast on us all.  Starting like a   cold ,timid  hurricane elusively    retreating   to hide behind an    imposter whirlwind     the   hazy canopy  from the distant hills moved about and  grew bolder as the sun down  drew closer.         .    
                         
                                                   Spanning    my    wandering  along    the  serpentine village - lane     I   strode up    in   the  end  on   to   the high-rising  river  embankment .    The  village folks and  farmer women ,within  the village and outside in the riverbank seemd to be  pretty  sure about heavy rains and strong hurricane.     Scared by signs  gathering in the sky they ran  back and  forth ,leading the cows  back home,removing  grains laid to dry '  dried up  dung-cakes  for  fuel and other necessities   to the safe shelters. 
                   I decided to hang up  spending some minutes more before the turmoil subsides.Be  my  home arrival as delayed or unsurer as it may --I began   to   sit   up on the broad  huge   but half- surfacing root of  the old and expansive Peepal ,    which lay in near-similar configuration to that of a heavily fed gluttony Python  striving to spiral   round the giant tree to exert muscle- energy for  easing the process of digestion. .       
    With  the      darkness deepening  as vulnerable as my real  apprehensions, I    rose to  look   instinctively  towards   my village on the opposite  river bank just  two km -away  right across the river's  sandy bed.     Before I could  properly  speculate  a lull  after the storm  over the river  down  below,     a  thick lock of thorny creeper touched my back . Trying to   reach  my  hand  back in order to respond to an  itching stimulated by     piercing  thorns ,  I felt sharp pricking in the  hand  . Turnig back I found a few Tornpieces of letters thrusted in  the thickly matted  lock of  an ageing flower-creeper going up in rounds on the  tree.Then I    picked   out   a  fragile ,old    and fading    piece of paper  presently wet and torn apiece if not severed .

                     My curiousity escaleted as they were born   out of the stormy  scenes  out side and a quiet  impact  of which     was  already getting  slowly    embossed  in the inner canvas. 
  The torn paper  dangling from  a braid of sharp-thorny-creepers became the source of my quest  which on drying up in the lantern lamp of a tea shop nearby ,  turned out to be a letter written by an  old  father  to  his son  working in   a distant  Arab country  to earn a   living and supporting his old helpless father who was  left behind  helpless and  alone  out here ,his dear wife of decades bidding good-bye since years.
   I   was    told by the tea shop owner that the old father's son was really no  more . Because he died in    a   road accident  and the transport company that employed him as driver had consigned some money to the District Collector .The local Adm  Officers provided some  help and care in  form of an montly   sum  of  allowance    through  the  village  head man.  But the oldfather was  kept in an assured   belief  that  his son was sending money.     All the many letters  he wrote were carried by a school boy who thrusted allof  the  letters  in  to the creeper on this Peepal  Tree .  Though it was a    closely  guarded  secret  scheme  and was   faith fully  followed by  every villager but  no  manipulated  replies from an anonymous writer for the deceased  son  read  out to the   father could restore  him confidence or comfort .  And finally  the  truth  refused to remain in  dark. 
    Heart broken the old man sank in toa  more  complicated  mental  sufferings, Things  started to  worsen  fast . The  end  came like it does for all. 
The village  committee, paid a  memorable  tribute  to  the  beloved  father. 
    A  school boy next  door   who  acted a running -errand for the old father  always  left  his  letters  un stamped and un posted for obvious reasons , of course. Perhaps he may have been  struck  by the  idea  of  building an  archive of  letters using the lock of  thorny creepers  on the   Peepal  on  his  way  to  school.
However  the boy's  choice of a letter archive was ripped apart by occasional  wirlwinds as the one(Hurricane) that has just delivered  methe sense of  an  emptiness  and   left me to muse more on other parallels to hurricanes invisible.   The letter  undelivered  stirred me  up  raising  another hurricane all night  long.
  For the  message  delivered to  me was acommodated in a secured  archive though I failed to set  the  thorny braid of  creeper  out and  away  from the text message. 
 May  be  like  a  true  steel bar  getting  magnetic  power from a real  magnet , my  inner  folder was reticent to ridding  the  thorn  off the  letter's  message. 
  I knew  no discomfort other than the one the  letter blew at  me during my trudging back  home that dark night.