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Oct 02, '08



Yes  friends there  had   been a  chance  in  my  life  when  I  had a  brush  with  the   might  of  our  great  Army  establishment , but  thank  God  , I had  the good  sense of  not doing  it alone  ,   we  were  twenty of  us .

 All of  us  were just  fresh  from our  colleges and  were lucky  to have  got  a job  with a reputed public  sector company . Bubbling  with  fresh  ideas , great  enthusiasm , everyone thinking  himself to  be  no  less than the  future Chairman of  the company ,but  gradually , as  the  time passes , and  u realise your  worth , the future  Chairman starts getting  downgraded  further and further and  stops  at  getting even  one  promotion in time  ! Ha Ha ha !! 

In our  training  establishment we had  one  retired  army  Major  ,Major Appachhanna. He was  the true representative  of  the  old British army  tradition . Always straight , to  the  point  and  ready  to go !! He  was looking  after  our  physical  well being and  general  discipline . 

May  be  he  thought we  needed more of  the  army  dose  than  he  could give  us  alone !One  day he  had  the bright  idea that why should  not  the  chaps be dispatched  to some  good  army  training  institute  and  have  the knowledge of disclipline and  a full dose of  tough army life, which  will be  handy  for  us to deal  better with  the work  force  in  the  plant !

Major Appachhanna , the true  soldier that he  was , went  about  selling  this  idea to  our top  management in a true professional  manner . He convinced our  top  man that after  the boys  come from  army  training  for  one  month , they would bring  about the  changes which  will change  the whole  work culture !! A  bright  future for  the  company  ,waiting  just round  the  corner !!! 

After a few telephone  calls between Delhi  and  our  plant , and  a number of visits of our  Major    to Delhi we  came  to know that the soldier got  the approval for  20 of  us  to  be  trained in College  Of  Military  Engineering(CME) ,Pune  for  one  month . 


Major   hand  picked the twenty of  us himself with  utmost  care , after a number  of  interviews and tests .I  dont  know how he  could spot  me too as  one of  them !But he  did  it all the same ! The  criteria ? Of  course  those  who had  the  knack of  thinking straight, to  the  point and ready to  go   . Ha ha ha !! He  had  an eye for visualising  these  qualities in  us , my  selection amply proves  it  !

Our   Major , accompanied  us  to the CME  and  handed us over to another Major , Major Pathak,for  our  brushing and  cleaning  by  the  Indian  Army  !

If  name  has ever  done any injustice to a personality , it  was the  name of the CME  Major. Pathak surname gives a picture of  a very holy  and pious  soul , immersed in puja ,bhajan  and  kirtan . But our  Major  Pathak was  just  the  opposite . Instead of  bhajan and kirtan we had  the honour  of  listening  to  the  choicest  profanity in  all the Indian languages , and  of  course in English too."You bloody  well should  do  it ..... Teri  toh ...f...it, were all his  very favourite  utterings , came out  of  his  mouth like  bullets from  a  machine  gun , non-stop !! By and  by we also  became  used  to it and  started loving them and yes, using them  too !!!Army did  brush  us !!

But  he  was  a  handsome  chap.Medium  built ,very  agile , friendly and always smiling   except  for  when  the  bullets  used come  out of  his  mouth !! 

First  day  we assembled  in  the grand  assembly  hall     properly  dressed . Major  Pathak  briefed us about  the kind  of  training  we  will be having there and  all that  usual  stuff which  is  associated  with  such introductory speeches , but  he  was  Major Pathak not for nothing , 
He  concluded  his  speech
 "So my friends I welcome you to  Pune , the  city of    horses and    girls !! "Waited for  a sec.  for  the effect to sink in  and then  left the  hall abruptly.
 We all looked  at  each other with the  
meaningful   smile.  With  smile on our  face and hope and  bright  expectations too , we  also  dispersed .The  Major  was  an  instant  hit  with us!

In  the  evening  , each  one  of  us was  dressed as  if going  for  some fashion parade. But  obviously our  interest was more  on the two legged species rather  than  the  four legged ones ! There  were  some  very  subtle  players  of  this  game  amongst  us , they quietly , without  our  knowledge had  already  left  on  their  mission.

Some  of  us  having  the  same  vibes , went  straight to  M.G.Road . But  neither  of  the  two species mentioned  by  our Major  was  seen  anywhere there . May  be  we had arrived  early , but  some  of  us who  were  more  adventurous , ventured  in  the  bye-lanes to  try  their  luck . We waited  for  them  in a  coffeehouse nearby .After half  an hour or so they came  back with  doomsday writ  large  on  their faces ! They  had  approached  the  wrong species and  were  just  short  of  getting  the  awakening  kicks  !One  of  them  said 
"It  seems  in Pune both    horses  and  the  girls  are ready to  kick with the slightest  provocation. They  are kick  experts  yar ! "
We  respected  his  sentiments and bid farewell to  the search and concentrated on our  training  for  the remaining  period  of our  stay there .

The schedule  was  very  tight in CME  campus .Right  from  6 in the  morning till bed  time , and  bed  time was  never  before 10 or  11pm .There  were various  activities going  on , and  everywhere you had  to dress in a different outfit! Half  the  day  was  lost  in changing  the  dress only  !  ha ha ha !! In  army    they are  very  particular  abt  it . During  P.T. your shoes  were  checked  for polish , they used to feel  your cheeks whether u were  properly  shaved  or  not  , if  not  then  first  the  bullet firing  from  the Major and  then a  few  rounds of  the P.T.  ground . 


The  number  of  rounds to be  taken  depended  largely  upon  his interaction  with  his(Major's)  wife  on  the  particular  day  !On  a  good  day he  would  even let  the  culprit  off with  only bullet  fire . 

Gradually  we  became  used  to  each other and  the  discipline and life  of  Army  started making  inroads in  our daily habits.

  The  one  month period  was  getting over  we  felt  we were  also  getting  closer and  closer  to becoming  straight , to  the  point and always ready  to  go  attitude  of  our  Major  Appachhanna !!

And  what  better  way  to know  this fact, other   than from  the  very  appreciative  looks  from  your  wife  to  be  ??? 

Soon  after the training my  would  be  MIL , would  be  wife and  some  of  their  relatives  and  friends  dropped  to  my  place  for  the  grand look at  their would be  son-in-law ! Back  from  Pune  I  was at  peak    fitness !

The  fit  and smart look   , result  of  the  hard  grinding , made  them  smile and  in turn their  would  be  son  in  law  was  all smiles  too !! 

Straight  , to  the  point  and always  ready  to  go has  become a  habit with  me  now  !!



Thanks  Major  Appachhanna , thanks  Major  Pathak  !!!!!




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Sep 23, '08



Six   long months  after  the  death of  Aditya .


Days  were  like  an  unending nightmare  for  Savi. Those  horror  filled  and  violent incidents  were  deeply  etched  in  her  mind. However hard  she  tried  to  forget them  they  never would  go  out  of  her  mind .The  deafening  sound  of  the  explosion , the blood soaked body  of  Adi , his  slumping  down  in  her  arms  , everything were so  fresh  in  her  mind .During  night  she  would  suddenly  wake  up ,  her  body  trembling  and  soaked  with perspiration . She  didnt  know  what  to do . Her whole  world  was  shattered  in  bits  and pieces , she  tried  hard  to collect  those pieces and  build  something  out  of them , but then .... !!

She  lost any  interest in  her  life   .She  was  like  a living  corpse . She  had  put  on a lot  of  weight , she  didnt  care  for  her looks ,her hair  was  unkempt  and  dishevelled , dark  circles around  her  eyes , no  body  would  say that she  is  the  same Savi  who  used  to be  so cheerful ,vibrant and  full of  life !She   was  a living ghost of old Savi. .

She  used  to visit the  sea beach some  times , sit  there on  the same  spot , where both  of  them  were together  for the  last  time , watch  the waves striking  fiercely against  the  rocks , misty water drops would advance towards her  like fog and wet her , she  felt  some  solace with  the  cool touch  of   the fog , as  if Adi  was  also inside  it and  would  come  out  of  it  anytime and  take  her in  his  arms  !!


On one  such  occasion of  her  visit  to the  beach ..

That day she  was quite  depressed , there was  some tiff with her boss at  the  office  . She  didnt  feel well and  left  her  office  a  bit  early and  went  straight to  the  beach !It  was a very  clear  day .She  was sitting  on  the  same  spot .Sun was  quite  bright .The  sunrays  penetrated the misty  water  drops and the  reflection  of  the  rays  against  the  water  drops formed  a small rainbow !It was a fascinating  sight ! Savi  was  deep immersed  in this  wonder of   nature ,she  was lost in  it. She  was  mesmerised  by  the  amazing  sight  of  the colourful  rainbow , and she  felt as if  there was some human figure inside . She  went  a  bit closer  and  my  God , she saw the  figure  was none other  than  Adi ! He    looked  exactly the  same as he  looked  when  they  met  for  the  last  time . But tears were rolling  down his  eyes . He  beckoned her to come  closer , his  lips  were quivering  as  if  he  wanted  to  say  something !
Savi  could not  hold herself  and ran towards  him shouting  "ADI . Adi , look what you  have  done  to  me! I am  dying  everyday love !Please  take  me  along  with  you, I cant live  without  you  !!! Adi where  are  you  ??? "
"Savi ,listen  to  me " she  felt as if  he said in whispers but  still clear  enough to be  audible "You dont  die love , you have to live , for  my  sake Savi , do u want  me to weep and  weep ??"

"No Adi you know I  have  always  wanted  you to be  happy , tell me  what  should I  do for your everlasting  smile ?? "

"See what you  have  done  to yourself , would I ever  be
  happy?Gather  yourself Savi, live  your life , as you used  to with  me , my smile  will be  back  !! "and then  there was a gush  of  air through  the  mist and  the  figure disappeared  with it !

But the  sound  was still reverberating  in her  ears " Gather  yourself ,gather  yourself ,gather  yourself ...my  smile will be  back , my  smile  will be  back  !! "She  ran towards  the mist  to catch  hold  of  him but there  was  nothing  except  the water  drops  which  completely  drenched  her and  the  empty  sound  of  waves lashing  against  the  rock  !! 

She  stood  stand  still for  a moment , and  then  climbed  down  the rock , the whispering  sound  of  Adi still in her  ears .She looked  up  and started shouting at the top of her  voice so  as  to  make  him listen ,
"Yes  Adi I will live  for  you love ! I will do  anything  for your precious  smile !"

From  that  day onwards  she started gathering the  bits  and  pieces  from   her shattered  life . She  has  the  hope  of  seeing  again the  precious  smile on her precious  Adi's  lips.


Savi's  is  living  for  her  love  !!!!!!



P.S.  This  story  is  dedicated  to the  real  life  Savi, who  is  the  epitome  of  courage  and will power and  leading her life as  normally  as  anyone  now  !! My  hats  off  to  her !!!!!!!



                                              EPILOGUE                                     
25th Sept.2008 .
The biggest achievement , tribute , apllause whatever you may  call for  my blog was when I received a call from  non other  than the real  life Savi. I  am in her  contact since  my relationship  days  in fropper.She  has  been following  all my blogs as  non-member of  fropper from outside. She related with  my character fully and she said she  is  now a changed person !As Savi in my  story took a  resolve to live  for her  love , SHE  too will do the  same !!

May God  give  her  all the  courage , determination and will to lead  her life with  a new  resolve and hopes for a better to -morrow !!!









Sep 19, '08



                                              









                 
                    High  high and so  high 
                    Can  any one ever touch  the sky ? 
                    

                    You  change  your  colour  
                    You  change  your  mood 
                    You  exude  joy ,  
                    You  exude  fear 
                    You  bring  happiness 
                    And  you cause  cheer. 
                   
                     When  you are blue 
                     We all look up  to you   
                     For  a bright  shiny  day 
                     Full of  hope , actions ,
                     And  plans  to  make  the  hay  !

                     The  dark  clouded sky 
                     Causes    the  rains 
                     Wets  the parched  earth
                     Fills  the  rivers and ponds
                     And  summer-dried  drains.   
                     
                    But  when you are  pink 
                    In the dusk  and  dawn 
                    The beauty  sublime you spread 
                    The ambience, serene and  calm  
                    Heals our  body , soul 'nd  mind   
                    Like a cool and  soothing  balm.

                   Night brings  with  it 
                   All  the splendours 
                   All the  wonders 
                   Twinkling  stars and the  moon 
                   Planets  ,comets ,satellites
                   And  the feelings
                   We  are  never  alone .

                   You  show  us  your  fury 
                   You  show  us  your  might 
                   When  the  thunder roars 
                   And  the  lightning  strike.
                     
                     
                   
                    We  feel  so  dwarfed
                    Before  your  vastness oh  sky !
                    You  are  so  high, high and high                               Can  anyone  ever  touch  the sky???   
 
 
                     
                       
                                           
                                                                                          




Tags: high, small, vast





Sep 11, '08



It  had  been  more  than  two  months of  Aditya  and Savitri's  living  together . These  two  months  had  wings  of dreams , happiness , joy and  all the pleasures  of togetherness which  was a completely  out  of the world  experience  for  both  of  them .They  used  to  go  to their  work  places  together , used  to  meet at  the  same  place  at  the  end  of  the day !When  they  used  to  meet  in  the evening  ,  their wanting  of each  other  was  a sight  to  see ! As  if  eight  hours of being  away  from each  other  was too much ! 

They  were so eager to  share their experiences of  the  day , to  tell each  other their small pleasures and frustrations , ups  and  downs,  anything  and everything which  concerned  them ! They laughed at  the pleasures and become  sad  with  the  frustrations ! There was  nothing which they didnt  share . 

After they had  their fill of talking  they used to go  to the  restaurant of  the  mall and  have  their dinner !Sometimes they used  to  go to the  sea beach  the  most  favourite  place  for Savi . 

 There was  a  very  secluded place on  the beach , having  some  rocks .The waves  lashed  the  rocks and  the mist  like water droplets were  splashed  all around.Adi and  Savi  used  to  sit on  a  rock nearby at a  safe  distance and  soaked  themselves for  hours  together by  the  mist and  their  love  for  each other ! 

It  was  a  Saturday . For  the last two  three  days Adi  noticed  that Savi was a bit  restless . She  was not  her usual chirpy  and cheerful  self .He  thought  he  would  ask  her  but in the  hum-bug  of  the  daily  routine he  used  to forget .To  day  being  Saturday  and  a holiday  for  both  he  decided to  ask her  about  her  mood  swing  .

They  were  having  their late morning  cup  of  tea .

Adi took  a  sip from  the hot  and steaming  cup  of  tea and  asked." Savi  dear ?? "
"Yes  Adi ??"
"Is  anything bothering  you ? Want to  say  something ? I  see you  are not usual  self . You  are talking to  me only in 'yeahs  and  No's ' whereas previously  for  my  one word querry  you  used  to fill a  paragraph  !  Ha Ha HA ! "
"And  why  will I  not ? "burst  out  Savi as  if  it  was  just  waiting  to  come  out  from  her , "Everytime  I tell you to  listen to  my  past  story  you simply  turn a deaf  ear  to  it . We are  very  soon  going  to  marry and it  is  just right that  you  should know everything about  me . I  feel  very  guilty !"

"Oh  my  my ! So  my  Savi is  worried about  that  ! What is  there to know about  you luv ?? You  Savi , me Adi , we  gonna marry soon is  enough for  me . Past  is  past forget  it , think  about our  life  ahead  Savi "

"Now  no  way you  are  going  to dismiss it  to  day , by   these  sweet  talks of yours Adi  !To  day  in  the  evening  we  are  going  to  the  beach  and there I  will unburden  myself  of  my  past  to  you , not  to inform  you  but to make  myself one  with  you !"

"But  Savi .."

Savi  cut  him short  and  said "No  ifs  and buts , we  are  going  there and  you are  listening  to  me  OK ? Now  get  up , and  dont go  on  asking  for  more  tea , get ready  , we  are  having  lunch  outside , seeing  some  movie and  then to  the  beach , and it  is  decided ."She  said  all this  so  authoritatively ,Adi simply  looked bewildered  with  admiration for  her another mood  swing . 

"Now  do  I  have any choice  ?? You  win  my  luv ! " and  he  pulled  her close to  him and  filled  her  lips  and  cheeks  with  his love  and  care  filled  kisses !

"Now  you  stupid , stop it  and  get  ready fast or  we  will miss the local , and stop this  habit  of yours of  holding me for  the  slightest  pretext ." But  the  smile  on her face  betrayed her utterings  !!! 

When  they  reached  the  beach  the  sun  was    above  the  horizon .The sandy  beach was  bustling  with  activities of  the  Saturday evening  crowd .People  were in perfect  holiday mood!

Adi  and  Savi went  straight  to  the  rocky  end , and  chose a rock away  from  the spray  of  misty  droplets of  wave  splashes  .Except  for  the  wave  sounds  the place  was perfectly  calm .

They  sat  very  close  to  each  other . With  Savi's story  they  were  going  to be  further  close , one in all repects .In  thoughts , in  deeds  and  in sufferings  too !

"Now Savi come on with  your  story  luv , make  me  also feel  how  much  you  have  suffered  , I want  to  suffer as you  did .
Our  sharing  will ease the  burden you had   carried  for  so  long  ! "

"Yes  Adi , I know, because  if  I  withheld  anything  from  you ,you  are  sure  going  to  kill me  for  that  !Will I ever  take  the  pleasure of  sharing  my  sufferings  from you ?"

She  started with  it .It  was a  story full of   onslaughts of  pain and  suffering on a  girl  , both  by  nature and mankind. She  was an  orphan , left at the  doorsteps of  a
missionary  orphanage. When she  was only three months  old , the smallpox  vaccination caused some  reaction , making  her  right  side  paralysed , but gradually the  paralysis  was  cured  with  the  only side  effect  that  her  right leg  was  1/2 inches  shorter  than the left  one. She  lived  with  it and  adjusted  herself  very well so  much  so  that she  was  perfectly  normal ! Everything  was going  on  as  normal as  in any orphanage , she  was  growing  to  be a normal  healthy and  attractive  child. She  was eight  years old .

And  this  attraction became curse  for her , the superintendent  there started  abusing her  sexually , she  couldnt  resist , as  she  had  nowhere  to go and  no  one  to  whom  she  could  say anything. She  suffered and  suffered silently , making  her  very   resillient and   repulsive of  the  males .But  her  good  luck that the  suprintendent  was  transferred  and  the  new one  was a quite  different  man !

She  was quite  good at  studies , she  grew up as a fine  and  attractive  young  lady but  again the disease of  blood  defficiency    struck  her. She  became  an  ugly  woman , with  the  loss of  hair , associated  with  the  disease .But she  was a fighter , and  the  missionaries   also  helped  her , by  proper  medication  she  became  alright .Recovered  her old charm ,  graduated  got  a  job  and  moved  to the  girls hostel and  then met  Adi !!

".............and  then  I  met  you  Adi "She kept  quiet, Adi  kept  quiet , only  the  waves  talked ! The sound  of  waves  were  similar  to  the  sentiments  in their  hearts.Adi  was weeping and  was  about to  burst with  her  sufferings  and Savi knew how  much  Adi  suffered because  of  her  story   .

Adi  got  up  Savi  also   got  up holding  his  hands . They walked  together to   another rock  which  was being showered  by the misty  droplets , they  held  close  to  each other , let  themselves  soak  with the mist , wept  and  wept  in each  others  arms .The  tears , the  sufferings and  the  mist  , mixed  together , washed their pain and  they  were fresh  again !

"Savi  , it  is  getting  dark  dear , let  us  go "

"Yes Adi , I  am so relieved now  , and  feel  so light  and  happy , never  felt  so in  my  life !"

 They  held  each  others  hands and  started  walking towards  the road  running  parallel  to  the  beach to  catch  the  bus . They were so happy  now by sharing each  others joys  , sorrows , sufferings , they  felt  one  with each other. 

The  waves were left  behind  striking  on  the rocks as  if  saying  good  bye  to them !  

They reached  the  bus  stand  , one  bus  was parked  , but theirs  was the next  one .They  went into the  shed and  waited  for  their bus  to come  , talking  and  talking  about  their  future  life ,and  this  and  that , they were lost  in themselves ,oblivious  of  the  surroundings !

Suddenly  there was a thundering and deafening explosion , which  shook  everything nearby !

 Savi could  see Adi falling down , she  caught  hold  of  him , but  her hands felt  sticky  with some  wet liquid , he  was slumping  down and  down , blood  oozing  out first  in a trickle  and then a stream and finally he slumped  down on the ground  with Savi holding  him ! He was bleeding  profusely. 

He was struck by the shrapnel from  the  bomb  explosion from the  waiting  bus . Confusion took over all around  the  place .People were shouting  and  running here and  there out  of  fear, and Savi was seeing Adi bleeding and helpless in her  arms ! She  was crying ! 

"ADi , please  Adi , dont ......., Adi  dont ...., what  will I  do  without  you ????Adi  ,my Adi ............" But  another  onslaught of  mankind  on her , she  lost  him ! 

Six  months  later :

Savi  moved to  her  hostel . Continued  with her  job  but  could  never come  to accept   the  fact  that  she lost  him . She was desperate .!She  thought  many times  to commit  suicide , but  her love  , hope and strong  will stopped her  from  doing  so !

May  be fate  has  something  else  in store  for  her , may  be  for  better ????

She  goes  to  the mall everyday , stands resting  on  the  railing , may  be  waiting  for  ADI ?????

After the  wait  is  over late  in  the  evening , she  goes  back  to  her hostel , for  another day  of  waiting !

She  is  loving and living for  Adi  !!!!!!!!!!!!





P.S.  This  is  based  upon a  true  story of someone close  to  me in  real  life  !




Tags: fate, cruel





Sep 05, '08



                                                                          


                                   







                 The  most  awesome  creation  of  God       
                  It is  shallow and it  is deep 
                  It  makes  you  laugh 
                  And  it  makes  you  weep !

                                  
                    The lashing waves hit the moss 
                     Gathered thick on the  rocks
                     Rub  it and clean  it,
                     So is your heart , by its misty foam
                     When  you  enter  within it !                       
                   
                   
                    The  sea is  grand  , the  sea is  beautiful
                    The crimson red of  the  sunset 
                    Spreads  the aura of  serenity and calm
                    Happiness , joy  , cheer and  charm !                  
                     
                   
                     Life  to  many  ,  shelters  myriad live 
                     Beneath  it ,  within  it  
                     On  the  surface of  it 
                     Flora  and  fauna   that  thrive !!!

                     Oh God  spare  us  from  its  wrath 
                     When  its  high  and  mighty  waves 
                     Annihilate and  kill  , end  and  destroy
                     Anything and everything  in its  path !



                This  is  the  sea   as  I  see 
                The  most  awesome  creation of GOD !!! 



                     
                      
                                          
                   
                                              
                          









Sep 01, '08



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       Kyon  hain  yeh  dooriyan in nazdikiyon  mein   
       Kyon hain  yeh  fasle in karibiyon mein ??         
                      
      Satlaz  ka  pani wohi hai yahan bhi wahan bhi
      Raavi behta  hai yahan  bhi  wahan  bhi 
      Kashmir  ki sarjamin  yahan bhi hai wahan  bhi 
     
      Phir  kyon  hai  yeh dooriyan in nazdikiyon mein       
      Kyon hai yeh  fasle in karibiyon mein ??      
      
        
              
,     Id mein  sevaiyon khi  mithas
      Milne ki  garamjoshi 
       Khushiyon  ki  bahar  
      Yahan bhi wahi hai  , wahan bhi wahi hai !!

     Phir  kyon hain yeh  dooriyan in  nazdikiyon  mein 
     Kyon hain yeh  fasle  in karibiyon mein ??

     Ghalib aur  Zauk ke  kadradan yahan bhi  hain wahan bhi 
     Mehndi  Hasan  ki gazlen 
     Log  gaate  hai  yahan  bhi wahan bhi 
     Noorjahan  ka  noor chamakta hai
     Yahan bhi  wahan  bhi !

     Phir  kyon  hain yeh  dooriyan in nazdikiyon mein
     Kyon hain yeh  fasle in karibiyon  mein ??
       
      Sarhad pe jab hoti hai  goliyon ki bauchar
      Sipahi  marte  hain
      Maaen  roti hain 
      Bewaen sisakti  hain
      Yahan bhi , wahan  bhi.!

      Phir  kyon  hain yeh dooriyan in nazdikiyon mein
      Kyon hai yeh fasle  in karibiyon  mein ???
      

     Jab  ho  rahe  tthe hisse do , ek  zamin ke 
     Kitne huye beghar 
     Kitne  huye  yateem 
     Kitna khoon baha yoon hi !.

     Par , is bewajah  bahe  khoon ka, rang to lal tha
     Yahan bhi   aur  wahan bhi !.

     Phir kyon hain yeh  dooriyan in nazdikiyon mein 
     Kyon hain yeh fasle  in  karibiyon  mein ??????


 ENGLISH  TRANSLATION  FOR  MY  NON- HINDI     SPEAKING   FRIENDS     
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      Why  this  distance  between  the  near  ones 
      Why  this indifference  between  the  same  ones ???

       
       
   The  water in Satlaz is the same  here and  the  same  there 
    Raavi  flows  here too and  there too
    Land  of  Kashmir  is here too and there too
        
    Then  why  this  distance between  the near  ones
    Why  this  indifference  between  the  same  ones ???

     
                             
      During  Id , the  sweetness of  Sevaiyan  
      Warmth  of  the  embrace
      The cheerful ambience
      Is  the  same  here  too and  the  same  there too

     Then  why  this distance  between the  near  ones 
     Why  this  indifference  between  the  same  ones ???

      Ghalib  and  Zauk   are  relished here too and  there  too
      The  ghazals of  Mehndi  Hassan  
       Are sung  here  too and  there  too
       Noor  jahan shines here  too and  there  too .

      Then  why  this distance  between the near  ones 
       Why  this  indifference  between the  same  ones ???
        
       When   on the border the  guns  fire 
       Soldiers  die
       Mothers  cry
       Widows   weep 
        Here  too and  there  too !

        
       Then  why  this distance between the  near  ones 
       Why  this indifference  between the same  ones ???


           
      
     When  the one land  was  paritioned 
     How  many  were rendered  homeless
     How  many  were  orphaned 
     How  much  blood was shed senselessly !

     But colour  of  the senselessly shed  blood was red
     Here   too and  there  too !

     Then  why  this distance  between the  near ones 
      Why this  indifference  between  the  same  ones ????









Aug 28, '08



                   Jinda  hoon  main  bas  tumhare  liye , tumhare  liye !

  
                  Sansen chal  rahin  hain
                  dil dhadak  raha   hai 
                  Tumhare  liye  , tumhare  liye  !
                   
                    khayalon  mein ho tum
                    khwabon  mein  ho tum
                    Tum  hi  meri asha ho                                   
                     Mere ab tak chup si
                      Juban  ki  bhasha ho






                Jinda  hoon  main  bas tumhare  liye  tumhare  liye  !    
                    
                   



  
                    Mujhe tumhari  chahat mili
                    Viran  si  jindagi  mein                    
                     Mujhe tumhari  aahat  mili
                      Chahat  pane  ko
                     Aahat   sunne  ko 

            Jinda  hoon  main  bas  tumhare  liye , tumhare  liye !

                       Ae  meri  khushnasibi 
                       Ae  meri  khushnooma  khwab
                       Tum kya  yoon  hi chali  jaogi ?                    
                       Hazaron  unkahin baten
                       Hazaron  sapne   
                       Jinhe tumahre gird  buna hai maine
                      Unhe  adhoora  chhor  kar
                       Tum kya  yoon  hi  chali  jaogi  ??
                      Tum  ho  to  main hoon    
                       Tum  ho to  jindagi  hai  !

        Jinda  hoon  main  bas tumhare  liye , tumhare  liye  !!

                      Sukhe  kheton mein barish ho tum
                      Thandi  hawaon  ka  jhonka  ho  tum
                      Tum ho toh hai  sab  kuchh
                      Warna  khali si  jindagi mein 
                      Sannate  ki  gunj ke  siwa 
                       Kuch  bhi  nahin  kuch  bhi  nahin  !!

       Jinda  hoon main bas   tumhare  liye , tumhare liye  !!!!

ENGLISH  TRANSLATION  FOR  MY  NON HINDI  SPEAKING  FRIENDS


    I am  living   for  you  only , for you  only  !!

   I am  breathing 
    my  heart  beats
    for you only, for you only !!

You  are  in  my  thoughts
You  are in  my  dreams
You  are my  hope
You    are  the  voice  
Of  my silent speech 

I am living  for  you only , for  you only!

I  got  your  love, 
In my   such  a lonely life 
I  got  the   sound  of  your  presence
To  get  your  love
To  get  the  sound  of  your  presence

I am living  for  you only, for  you only  !

Oh  my  good omen 
Oh  my cheerful  dream
Will you go  away just  like  that ?
So many  untold stories
So many  dreams  woven  around  you 
Will  remain unfulfilled
Will you go  away  just  like  that  ???
I  exist  for  you 
 You  are  my life !

I am living   for  you only ,  for  you only !

You  are  like rainddrops  in a barren  land 
You  are  like a surge  of    cool  breeze 
My everything  is you and  you  only
Else in this  forlorn  life 
There  is  nothing  
Except  the  echoes of silence and  silence  only !

I  am  living  for  you  only  ,  for  you  only  !!









Aug 20, '08



He  was leaning  over  the  railing of   first  floor of  the  shopping  mall , and  watching  aimlessly at the crowd  down  below. 

She  was  also  leaning  over the  railing  of   first  floor of  the  shoppng  mall . But  she  was not looking  aimlesly downbelow , she  was  watching  him with intent  interest . 

His  office  was  nearby , everyday  after he  came out  of  the  office at  the end  of the  day , bofore going  back  to  his bachelor pad , he  used  to  come  here stand  on the first floor at  the  same  spot , used  to  watch the  crowd . 

She  was also working  nearby and used  to  follow  him everyday for  the  last one  week !

He  spent  his  time watching  the  people down below !

She  spent her  time  watching  him .

The reactions  and  the  expressions of  people in  different  situations  there , made  him react ! He used  to  smile , become  serious , pensive !

She  used  to  get  highly  amused  by  his  reactions .

He was Aditya and  she  was  Savitri !

That  day  when  Savi came  out  of  her  office a  bit  earlier , she  didnt  feel  like  going  to her working  womens  hostel so  soon . Not  so   early  to  that  boredom again . It  was more of a prison  than a living  place! So many rules  and  regulations, and  to  add to  her  woes , her  room mate  was another  rare  species of  woman- kind ! In the  six  months  of  living together   they hardly had any meaningful  conversation  other  than the routine  pleasantries ! And  that  too when her  roomie  would  have  time  to  reveal  her  drab  face from beneath  the  so  many Mills  and  Boons books  in which she  was always lost.She  had  her own world where she  didnt  want  any intrusion  !

When Savi  came  out  of  the  office  she  didnt  know  where  to go !She  was  just  walking  aimlessly along the  foot-path when  the  grand  shopping  mall by  the  roadside  caught  her  eyes !It  was all so  glittering  and  looked  so  fancy  from  outside ! All glass everywhere !The  atmosphere inside looked  so  cheerful ! She  went  in .

Ground  floor was mainly restaurant , with  very  few  shops  all around .The  spacious open  place  was  dotted with  small stone-top tables here  and there  with  some  chairs  around the table  .The  shoppers used to  sit  around  the  table and  eat here .

As  she  entered  the  mall , it  was bustling  with  human  activity ! People coming out with number  of  handbags holding  in their  hands ,people going in leisurely , l