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Posted on: Sep 27, '08

GIRL TALK!!!

Today I just thought of sharing random ramblings about my ex & my ego!!!

Please pause for a moment before the horrific upshots of some ex-husband emerge in your mind. Let me explain.

The big ex is none other than one of the boys I met during the days i was staying with my family .

Well, I met him at a family party, and we liked each other. After meeting him for almost five weeks, which were quite drama-filled and rock-starred out, I stated getting well-meant advice from my family about marrying him which were followed by adamant denials on my part about anything less than total post-nuptial bliss.

We both came from interesting families, neither one of us living the lifestyle of the rich and famous, but neither lacking a clean, loving, supportive home. But I always thought that I was a little better than him. My ego told me I was too good for this guy that he'd only drag me down.

Sounds funny, no? I guess it can be.

But when I think of ego, I usually thought of someone carrying a ridiculously inflated opinion of himself, most of the time for no apparent reason.

But for me it was much more than that. I believed that I deserved something better for myself. May be a steer, an aspiration and few goals set with a better life in mind, a life where I could go home to the people who loved me and were proud of me, of what I accomplished.

May be I wanted more in life than the left-over scraps of just getting by.

I still hate to feel like I failed at anything, and admitting that I lost something.

At least I don’t spend time on finding out and quoting the examples of ill-fated relationships to my parents, to defend my decision nor I need to assure my concerned friends and family that I know exactly what I am doing, and that everything would work out just fine.

I don’t have any family but at this point of time I prefer to think of myself as a young pioneer woman, roaming in the wilds of single-dom with lots of like minded friends and a lot of credit card debt!!! Lol!!

And moreover I AM AN ADULT!

(Barely. I mean, yesterday when I called up my mom, she told me on the phone that you're not an adult until you've everything under control)

I have EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL! Everything just falls down around my ears and I have nothing to count on, except myself.

(Ego. It makes for a better story, what can I tell you?)

Tags: marriage, girl, ego, woman, love, relationships

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Moon-Hi said:
"I still hate to feel like I failed at anything, and admitting that I lost something" reflects the fact that ego persists to believe that what I did was right !

"I have EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL! Everything just falls down around my ears and I have nothing to count on, except myself". The fear of lonliness & uncertainity still lingers in the mind. One has to have a brave heart to stop hearing what falls down around the ears.

Come out of these contrasts face the world with ego and make your ego a successful story. You have taken a leap forward you have only to gain and nothing to lose.

Wish you get the best out of this world

October 18, '08

Titan71CAP said:
Thanks for sharing your inner self... Know thyself, be yourself & God bless you. I wish you find peace & happiness...

October 11, '08

skb8715 said:

Very nice a girl is expressing about a girlexcellent story supremeduty all sharing with nherself

October 11, '08

sodhaPIS said:
helooooooo

October 10, '08

MY_MUSKAN said:
nice post thanx for sharing it

October 09, '08

Pagal-Bhoot said:
5 stars...

October 09, '08

Pagal-Bhoot said:
oye hoye U r an adult...

October 09, '08

PRAK1957 said:
TRUST YOUSRSELF AND ACT ACCORDINGLY. YOU DECIDE AND CHOOSE THE PATH YOU WOULD LIKE TO GO.
ALL THE VERY BEST.

October 08, '08

ranbirzone said:
liked the honesty you put in to your post,, you are a girl with lot of clarity in the mind, i appreciate that,, but a lot of confusion of your exact path of what exactly you wants from and in life,,, still you just dont have had the perfect path so till than confusion remains,, but you get the exact road and you are booming,, believe me,, you are wasting a lot of your potent at the same time, in talking nothing......

October 08, '08

sindhi7540 said:
A HUSBAND is what is left of the LOVER after the nerves has been extracted.

October 04, '08

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