Posted on: Oct 04, '08
You Cheated Me...Why? WHY???-Conclusion!
Kittu... that chat with you became my all time favorite one.
I still remember I felt bad and sad when I repeatedly received those kissing emoticons from you. So said “Stop sending those kissing emoticons…if u make me angry or if i loose impression on u. i will keep ur id in "ignore list" “
Your answer mesmerized me.
U said “Listen my dear dumbo. I am a guy who is very proud of himself. Proudness doesnot mean....I belittle any others. I am very a confident guy and my youthful exuberance ..am sure will never go till my last breath”
I interrupted you by saying “I don’t know the meaning of DUMBO”
U laughed and said “DUMBO means IDIOT” and continued your message…
“ so ...what I mean to say is… I started liking you.”
I thanked you for your virtual liking. But you were still immersed in conveying your message (may be my warning of keeping your id in “ignore list” acted so violently on you).
“ I know I can achieve a lot..and I am a firm believer in every human should make his life count....by himself....and there is nothing called gods help and kinds.....the reason, I am saying all this is .....Sex chat is done by those kinds who dont get the satisfaction of having straight sex and who in fact lacks something in them.....(could be confidence or the stamina...could be mental and/or physical)....and I dont lack either of those listed...understand......my dear cute dumbo professor
so ..please...don’t consider me like them.
Anyways......I dont like to give explanations to anyone when I dont do anything wrong...but yes....since u dont know me much and since chat is the media thru which we got in touch..I thought I will let myself known to you in words...thats y said it all...ok…now u can carry on your simulations.”
By saying this you said Good Bye and left. I thought you will never come back to chat with me. But you came after two days. I don’t know y I felt very happy when I read your “Hi” again. This time I chatted with you without hesitations. After chatting with you for long I said “oops…what we talked all the time is NON-STOP NONSENSE. I never forget your spontaneous reply “My dear cute professor…NON-STOP NONSENSE ALWAYS CARRIES SOME SENSE”.
Krish… I really like this spontaneity in you. Later more often we chatted in this same fashion...always jovial. U became my little kanhaiya (Krishna). I never felt any thing bad in our chats. I showed my pics. But never asked yours. Reason was I have developed some image from your words, I was afraid what happens if your original pic doesn't match with image in my mind.
I don't know what happened...u didn't say hi for several days. After several days you appeared online by saying Hi. Told me how your recently taken projects occupied your full time. That too all of a sudden your marriage got fixed and was busy in those rituals.
“Now no chances of coming online more often.” By saying this U introduced your boss Sri Ram. While introducing you said “Sneha…Sri Ram sir is also from your state, very good friend of mine…respectable person. You never regret his friendship.”
Then you said “Now I have to run for shopping for my darling”.
Later Sri Ram and I chatted for some time. He was very polite. 42 year old. Never used those emoticons which you used in your chats. Never exceeded in limits in expressing his views. Once when I was upset due to some thing, he said “Sneha....let me tell you one thing....life is full of complications if you think it as one. Well..my philosophy is simple...I, when facing just success, think of Life is one FULL OF ROSES (without thorns)…and when facing FAILURE, think of LIFE as one FULL OF ROSES again...(but with thorns). I feel it as my duty to pluck the rose without the thorny part of it and use it accordingly.”
I found real friend in him. I regularly chatted with him. He showed his maturity in every chat we had. Once in some discussion he said “ the way I look at success and failure is with smile and happiness. For..with success I know I achieved something and would wait for the next one......so thats a smile with caution and with failure....I know on what I failed ...and hence its an easy smile...as I am more confident ..now that ...I know what I am needed to do ..to make it successful..so an easy smile”.
I slowly started liking him. First time I shared my true personal details with online friend. I told him “I was eldest of four children. Two brothers and one sister. Due to family problems, my fate forced me to stop my studies after high school level and threw me to join as an attender in state govt office. Took care of my brothers and sister in good education. Slowly they grew up…completed their degrees. Joined into good jobs. Mean while I took degree in distance education and wrote departmental tests and qualified to clerk position. While searching for life partners to my brothers and sister, my family members asked me “r u interested in marriage? Shall we search for you too?” I just smiled and kept quite because no girl says “I am waiting to get married.” In my brother’s marriage relatives asked my family members abt my marriage for which my family members said “she is not interested in marriage.” I wished to scream in public “I want to get married and want to run the family life with my husband and children.” But I kept quite representing a smile on face. One after the other all got married and now with kids. My hair started showing grey patches here and there. Now I am class one officer. Big cabin, PC with internet connection. I stay alone with my mother in our Govt. quarters.”
After listening to my words he said “Sneha…hats off to your sacrifices for the benefit of your family members. U know Sneha…most of the family relations revolve around money. As you were the only bread earning person in your family, your mother never wished to loose you on the name of your marriage. Even after getting jobs, your brothers escaped from their duties and thrown the entire responsibility of your mother on you. Your mother can’t go any where, so she will never think of your marriage even in future. You should be brave Sneha. U should fight for your life too. Gather your family members and discuss the matter openly. Let your brothers take responsibility of your mother. Get freedom and try to settle down in life. I am sure God should have made a perfect man for you.”
I got tears. No body advised in this way. Yes…I should think about my life too. Every day I used to chat with him. Unknowingly intimate feelings on Sri Ram developed in me. He was the only man who always came forward to give proper advice whenever I was in need. Slowly I got the urge of seeing his picture. So one fine day I asked his picture. I don’t know what happened. The next day onwards Sri Ram never came for chat with me. I didn’t know what Krish was doing. Don’t know how to contact them.
After several days I met one of my childhood friends who is working as manager in a software company, expert hacker. In discussion, I told him about Krish and Sri Ram. He took their mail ids. After a week he met me and told this shocking news “I hacked both ids. Surprising thing is both Krish and Sri Ram were the same. The original person who created these ids was neither 27 year old not 42 year old. He was 67 year old man. Not only these two, he got multiple ids. Origin is Chennai. Unable to trace out his address and other details.”
I didn’t utter a word, took leave in an urgency and ran to home. Burst into tears behind the closed doors of my bed room. My mind filled with only one unbearable thought “U crushed my heart very severely. I developed affection on 27 year old boy Krish. I fell in love with Sri Ram. U r neither Krish nor Sri Ram. Then who r U? If you r different where r my Krish and Sri Ram. U cheated me…Why? Why???”
Sneha
PS: As some of my friends asked me to write the truth related to this blog, I have decided to say what is what.
In this blog, the chat with Krish was true. This final conclusion part is fictitious. The chat history given as part of Sri Ram was also the part of the 3 hour chat with Krish.
Sneha of conclusion blog is fictitious and what Sneha told to Krish was real.
Krish was gem of a boy I have ever come across.
May God bless him wherever he is now.
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