There are very few things which do not stir me from my normal linear behavior. This is matter of my being sensitive or emotional or as somebody pointed out "full of angst". I donno, I do not judge my self on those parameters, I just go with whatever comes to my mind.

Some days ago, I wanted to go somewhere and I was looking for a rickshaw(Manual one). So I was bargaining with them from 30 bucks to 20 bucks, after rejecting 3-4 of them, one of them said 20 bucks. Without wasting time I boarded on it and in usual chit-chat in my mind, I reached the destination. I gave him 100 bucks, after deducting 30 he returned 70, I was taken by surprise. I started arguing that he said 20 bucks and he was stuck on 30 bucks. I told him that I have chosen his Rickshaw over 4 others for the reason. But he said no.
I went mad and angry and busted like volcano. I threw all the 70 bucks on the ground and said that I was being cheated. The rickshaw wala got scared and he said that please don't insult the Laxmi and he will return 10 bucks and that I am right. In all this blizzard, I took the money, but suddenly I felt like a wrong man,so I returned him the 10 bucks and walked away without uttering a word.
This entire event shook me too much, I felt depressed and lonely and cold. To me 10 bucks mean nothing, to him its laxmi. My status of paying the exact price and staying to my words make no sense here. My mistake was not confirming. But my reaction was arrogant and insensitive.

I donno, I am just concern about things and get disturbed, at least once in a while. I see people spitting just anywhere and couple of times I too am spitting,which I can justify, but I would rather like to apologize. The next thing which concerns me is Polyethylene, I have tried very hard to avoid it, but my life style is badly screwed. I tend to use them, however hard I try.
The biggest concern is babies, every time a new baby is born it brings additional weight on this planet, the current population of earth 6 billion is more than, what it can support. So, every new baby is reducing the life of already alive humans(I am not even talking about animals). There are millions of babies unprivileged and in need of parents, why can't they be ours? I guess there are emotional, social, psychological issues related to this entire baby business. And most of people will reject my words saying that I am too unauthoritative to make such a comment. I am young but sensitive enough to understand what goes with people.

Supposedly, I am getting old and older people are more emotional. but nevermind, who cares what I think, people will do things anyway.

Tags: thoughts, concerns